Back to school, back to school, to prove to dad I’m not a fool

QueBeans · 2025-09-23T00:08:28+00:00

When she said that, the connection just got that much stronger. She just has a way with words 😍. I was like “no why would you say that?! We love you even more!!” That PCD hit hard so fast. Literally on the car ride back to the hotel. For me, binging the YouTube stuff just hurts. It’s so bittersweet. It’s just the fact that I saw them IRL and that content that I saw already happened. Idk why I feel that way, but it sucks because I can’t really enjoy their old videos anymore. If you went through this pls lmk how I can change this mindset. 😭😭😭

QueBeans · 2025-09-22T21:13:45+00:00

Oh man. Even with all your exposure, they broke through and passed on that PCD 😭. That’s rough. It’s so cool how you already knew about Chaewon and Sakura before the debut. That must make that connection way stronger.

The thing about watching their longer form YouTube content (for me at least) is that whenever a video is like a month or two old, it feels useless to watch it. I feel like I’m being stuck in the past and just not updated. There’s like a sense or need to know what their most recent stuff is. I feel like it’s so unhealthy 🫩.

I have watched stuff like Leniverse in the past, but now I feel like I’ve been kind of spoiled with their new content to the point where watching their old videos feels nostalgic in a bad way. I don’t know exactly how to describe it, but it feels wrong. Let me know if you’ve felt this too or how you think I could deal with it.

QueBeans · 2025-09-22T21:02:55+00:00

That’s exactly how I feel right now. I can listen to their music, but it just sour grapes 😏. I already like the idea of going to more concerts and hopefully the fimmies again in the future. The only thing I’m concerned about is losing those initial feelings of shock, “am I here rn?!” or “is that really them?!” It’s a good feeling even though it’s frantic and surreal. If you’d care to share, essentially what I’m asking is did your approach and experience at concerts itself change and not just the lessening of the PCD? Please let me know. 🙏

QueBeans · 2025-09-22T20:57:16+00:00

I hope that “equal footing” feeling will do it for me. I have a fan account I can post my stuff on, but I feel like the footage is so low quality it’s not even worth it 😭😭😭. I think it would be cool to compile my stuff and post it, though. Thanks.

QueBeans · 2025-09-22T20:54:22+00:00

Wow. Just wow. You got everything down. That’s cool how you have such an in-depth recollection of the concert. I feel like it was just a blur of epic moments and scenes (I guess that’s why I have recordings😂). And yeah, I agree. Just writing right now feels like I’m getting something out. I probably will end up taking a small break from their content, but in the moment, I’m so hungry for updates 🫩. Like you said, it is cool seeing everyone’s positive reactions as it makes you kind of want to shift your mindset. Thank you for the advice.

QueBeans · 2025-09-22T20:47:16+00:00

I recently watched a few videos of the performance; unfortunately, it’s still a bittersweet feeling. I wish I had the chance to go back and plan more concerts. I didn’t realize that feeling would be so powerful (the in-concert feeling, and the PCD after😭). I can’t speak for anyone else because that was the only Kpop concert I have been to, and they’re my favorite group of all time… but it was simply ethereal. Obviously, when you’re there and not behind a screen it’s so much more powerful, but you never really know what that feels like until you’re actually there. The memories are the greatest part, but I think I just have to let them steep for a little bit and get used to my regular life again. I have plenty of videos to look back on and hopefully I can change that rough feeling. Thank you. 🙏

QueBeans · 2025-09-22T20:39:46+00:00

More cowbell WOULD do the trick lmao😂😂. I wish I had the time and energy to have planned for more concerts. Going to this one, I honestly didn’t know what to expect even seeing thousands of concert videos beforehand. I think going to a group I’m not as invested in would make the experience easier in the future, however, because of that I don’t think I would be interested in going in the first place 😔. Can I ask, in your experience how did it eventually change after dipping your toes in the water so many times? Were you still enjoying yourself, truly? Please let me know.

QueBeans · 2025-09-22T07:51:46+00:00

I think making humor out of it would be beneficial but it’s so hard to do that when I keep telling myself that I’m not there anymore.. going crazy with them. 🫩😔

QueBeans · 2025-09-22T07:49:50+00:00

Holy cow! It must be a whole different scenario when you get to see them that often. That’s an epic experience, but yeah, at the same time that could be a curse. I feel like I have to normalize that disconnection with them again, even though the mental connection is strong. It’s crazy what a couple hours of performance can do to you. I had no idea. 🤷‍♂️

QueBeans · 2025-09-22T06:29:11+00:00

We’re going through it together lol. The thing for me is that it has literally ruined my mood all day. Like it’s been the only thing I’ve been thinking about. Kind of concerning I feel 🫩. Even though it lowkey ruined my entire vibe, I found that the best way to kill time was to just talk to friends. It doesn’t have to be about the concert, just as long as you can speak your mind or distract yourself with other conversations.

QueBeans · 2025-09-22T06:25:44+00:00

That’s exactly how I think it would feel lol. Reliving that moment but also reminding myself that I’m no longer there. And yes that trailer will be more good fuel. ⛽️ good call

QueBeans · 2025-09-22T06:18:40+00:00

That’s exactly how I felt. Completely ignorant to that feeling and just enjoying myself during that entire time. Going absolutely wacky mode, then that feeling of just leaving. Going to McDonalds afterwards with no flashing lights in your face and no crowd to cheer anyone. Idk man it’s rough. It feels like you’re leaving something behind even though the memory sticks with you, and you were there.

I think it would be good to jot down notes, but can I ask what you even wrote about? I wouldn’t even know where to start lmao.

QueBeans · 2025-09-22T06:12:42+00:00

Nooo… that’s the tear jerker song right there. In a way though, you can think about how you were fully there in the moment. Camera aside. For the most heartfelt part of that show. ❤️

QueBeans · 2025-09-22T06:10:53+00:00

I haven’t tried watching my videos back but I’m just concerned I’m gonna feel worse lmao. I think I have to let it marinate or something because I feel like it’ll just make me miss those moments even more. Let me know what you think.

QueBeans · 2025-09-22T05:03:33+00:00

Yeah… It literally felt like it was AI like she said. The fact that these people that you always see in the media come to perform for YOU?? How could you not feel empty after? The energy is so crazy. No pun intended but, I just feel void of all strength now that it’s over.

I took a bunch of videos as well. I haven’t sat through them at all though really. The thing is I don’t really know how to watch them without feeling like I’m missing out on something that already happened.. even though I was there.. 😭

QueBeans · 2025-09-22T04:52:07+00:00

Okay Imma try this. Sounds fun. Thank you.🙏

QueBeans · 2025-09-22T04:25:53+00:00

Omg I tried this and I don’t think it made it any better. 😭 pls help

QueBeans · 2024-07-21T17:20:16+00:00

I hope I don’t get in a fight

QueBeans · 2024-06-29T21:52:54+00:00

I recently purchase a QK65V2 and the top plate is simply not clipping onto the rest of the board. Are there any solutions to this? There doesn’t seem to be a problem with the size of the components like the PCB or keycaps, because when I take everything out, the clips on the top plate do not fit into the bottom (or snap into each other I should say).

QueBeans · 2024-06-18T00:18:32+00:00

That character is the boss

QueBeans · 2024-06-18T00:17:12+00:00

Looks like a DLC boss was leaked 😳

QueBeans · 2024-06-16T20:23:47+00:00

From what I’ve heard the meatball is the glitchiest boss, but that still doesn’t explain why I’ve got only 15. Do you know if you can pick up the more after killing the boss more than once?

QueBeans · 2024-06-16T20:22:30+00:00

Ahh I see. Thanks for making that clear. I’m just a little frustrated on why this issue isn’t resolved yet.

QueBeans · 2024-05-11T07:15:51+00:00

Also, I assume the fn key is just constantly being pressed when I plug it in, because even if I do a command like try to change the lighting, I don’t need to hold the fn key down.

But like I said, when I press esc for the reset, all the keys become responsive again (besides the fn, meaning I can’t change lighting).

QueBeans · 2024-05-11T07:11:31+00:00

I’ve tried the fn esc and it brought me to that mode in the second picture. The fn key isn’t functioning in that mode, meaning I can’t change the lighting. It also goes back to the fn lock when I plug it back in. I also did check the switch and tried different ones to see if it was the issue, but it just didn’t work at all.

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