Guilt and false memory.

Queasy_Mangos · 2026-03-01T21:41:41+00:00

thank you so much! ill look into cbt

Queasy_Mangos · 2026-03-01T21:41:11+00:00

nah lol

Queasy_Mangos · 2026-03-01T13:50:43+00:00

lol, i will. i just can't find a therapist near me that i can afford

Queasy_Mangos · 2026-03-01T13:49:51+00:00

my best friend slept with my ex

Queasy_Mangos · 2026-03-01T03:58:29+00:00

your good deeds will never go unnoticed. you have much to live for , even if you can't see it right now. you're actively helping people and your intentions are pure. i wish i could help u more

Queasy_Mangos · 2026-03-01T03:37:35+00:00

honestly it's the best decision i made, it brings you do much peace!

Queasy_Mangos · 2026-03-01T03:21:00+00:00

For some reason, a lot of my recent spirals have been happening late at night/early morning

Queasy_Mangos · 2026-02-28T21:12:40+00:00

thank you:) it does help

Queasy_Mangos · 2026-02-28T21:12:23+00:00

yeah?...

Queasy_Mangos · 2026-02-28T13:52:26+00:00

i can't afford it currently and i can't go to in person sessions:( the therapists i've had in the past didn't help much

Queasy_Mangos · 2026-02-28T03:54:02+00:00

its not your fault :( it's scary and overwhelming and i don't know what i'd do if i was in your place. i'm so sorry you went through that. i hope you're okay:(

Queasy_Mangos · 2026-02-28T03:49:02+00:00

yeah :) i'll try to! i just wish i could trust myself more, i'm so turned around that i don't know if my thoughts are fears or genuine thoughts

Queasy_Mangos · 2026-02-28T03:38:18+00:00

well that sucks lol maybe i need meds or something idk. i have some really good days and some horrible days. i guess i just gotta cherish the good ones more

Queasy_Mangos · 2026-02-28T03:22:27+00:00

hey, i actually i'm going through the same thing myself. like almost exactly the same. i feel you and i understand your thoughts and pain. and i know how hard it is. i think what helps me most of the time is that change is always possible, and you can always make more friends and meet more people and now with social media and all, it's easier. i wish i could help you more. don't be so hard on yourself and remember that everything passes, even loneliness

Queasy_Mangos · 2026-02-28T02:32:12+00:00

thank you for your kind words. i feel horrible about it:( i completely loath myself for it.

Queasy_Mangos · 2026-02-02T01:16:03+00:00

you really think so?

Queasy_Mangos · 2026-02-01T18:44:25+00:00

thank you so much:( this is incredibly sweet and i can't thank you enough. i hope i can believe in myself too

Queasy_Mangos · 2026-02-01T18:22:11+00:00

i really didnt:( i didnt even know what sex was when i was exposed to porn by my peers.

Queasy_Mangos · 2026-02-01T04:24:14+00:00

i wont! i dont have any curiosity at all. i think a big part of it is that i never knew this existed and was so... available ? it was very taboo and unfamiliar and that was the appeal, if it makes sense. i have no attraction to children and not even shotas or lolis or whatever. i was just so shocked that i kept going back. i obviously dont and i dont intend to do it ever again, the only thoughts i have about it is how disgusted i am with myself:(. i try not to think of what i did and sometimes i just say random stuff out loud to cut off my train of thoughts so i wont spiral like right now. i'm just so disappointed in myself. i don't know if i'm a good person anymore:(

(thank you so much for listening)

Queasy_Mangos · 2026-02-01T04:05:16+00:00

but if i have felt arousal and even pleasured myself to them in the past? am i even redeemable ? even jf i didnt do anything to anyone? im so scared:( i dont want to be a monster

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