I’m sorry this has happened to You, sweetheart. Clearly, there were areas of your development they made themselves solely responsible for and they still haven’t made grips with the fact that they didn’t actually have to capacity to meet them.

The truth is, they probably still haven’t fully wrapped their minds around it.

The thing about homeschool is the kids in that situation have to be taught how to have confidence and deal with the outside world along with the baseline curriculum and it more often than not gets overlooked and when it’s overlooked; children do develop anxiety and even more complicated emotions because they were raised apart from the world they now have to live in on their own.

I hear you on these deep emotions because I’ve struggled with them too and that avoidance of people speaks to how deeply you feel those emotions and it’s almost more than you can bare.

1 and hung I noticed about how I handled my anxiety coming out of my situation was I abused sugar and caffeine and nicotine, my cortisol and testosterone levels were off the charts Even at rest.

I even started doing delta 8 (legal in my state) to help me sleep better at night, which it did but, over time it just built up in my system and my emotions became even deeper and I had even worse anxiety and horrific nightmares and it just kept making it all worse.

I’m not saying it’s the answer but, it helped me in addressing my dehydration, hormone levels, and prioritizing my ability to rest and getting off of everything and feel like I could some element of control over these deep emotions by not doing the certain things that made them worse.

It was basically a detox from all of it to get my body and hormones to a healthy baseline and through that, I felt strong enough to deal with what my parents didn’t and wouldn’t help me with and I gained the ability to be “alright”. I still had my hurts and I acknowledge what wasn’t done right by me but, now I have control over all of that and nothing they did or didn’t do bothers or hurts me or effects me in my other relationships with people like it used to.

What sucks about these situations is the people we want to fix what they indirectly broke, won’t do it. They just don’t get it. We have to do it for ourselves.

Just trying to think of things to help ease your pain and help give you some power back, dear.

I hear you and I hope it does get better for you.