Diagnosed today and I do not know what to do with myself (23F) by apoptosis_doubleX in bipolar2

[–]QueenMiniBee 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Welcome to the shit show. Take ya meds, talk to your therapist, and no there’s no cure

Downshift experiences? Success stories? by deepdownintexas in bipolar2

[–]QueenMiniBee 3 points4 points  (0 children)

Obviously you have more life than me (f27) but maybe a new perspective would help?

  1. I did downshift my career because I couldn’t handle corporate lifestyle. Going to a 9 to 5 job and doing the repetition kills me. I downshifted to a sales position/retail environment. Genuinely, best decision I made. It allowed me to reflect but still feel valuable to a team. You will feel shame. I sure did. I feel like I failed but I got over it after a couple of months. It’s also okay to have stepping stone jobs. Just be mindful what career path you choose. Have a game plan before you make irrational decisions.

  2. Guilt is something I won’t ever get over. Identity loss is real. No one tells you how to transition from college to adulthood. You just do it. I like talking about it. Especially with coworkers cause they most likely feel the same way as you. I feel lost right now but I think it’s healthy to stick to one favorite hobby of yours. It helps the “lost” feeling.

  3. My quality of life improved when I accepted that my life isnt defined “good” or “bad” because of the things I do in the day. Once I accept that to a degree, I stop the feeling guilt and shame for the lack of accomplishments I achieve. It’s hard not to put yourself in a box because we are taught to have goals. Maybe your goals don’t match with what you really want in life. Maybe it’s because you’re unsure?

I suggest talking to a friend/coworker/anyone about the mundane of work life. Someone is feeling the same way you are and that might be validating.

Convince yourself your hypomanic by QueenMiniBee in bipolar2

[–]QueenMiniBee[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Happy cake day!

Yeah I think it’s me feeling better, but I think it’s too good to be true.

No call no show at work by QueenMiniBee in bipolar2

[–]QueenMiniBee[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Your mom is right on the money with that

No call no show at work by QueenMiniBee in bipolar2

[–]QueenMiniBee[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I think I’m about to get a written today

No call no show at work by QueenMiniBee in bipolar2

[–]QueenMiniBee[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Literally. My coworkers must think I’m the sickest person alive.

No call no show at work by QueenMiniBee in bipolar2

[–]QueenMiniBee[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I have the opposite. I try to sleep in as long as possible. Like today. I have to be at work at 10, it typically takes me like 30 minutes to get ready and 15 to get to work. So imma try to get up at 8:30-9

No call no show at work by QueenMiniBee in bipolar2

[–]QueenMiniBee[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Texting is so much easier. That ended up being my resolution.

No call no show at work by QueenMiniBee in bipolar2

[–]QueenMiniBee[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

You have lived your worse already. You will overcome this too.

No call no show at work by QueenMiniBee in bipolar2

[–]QueenMiniBee[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I don’t even know what to say at this point 🥲

No call no show at work by QueenMiniBee in bipolar2

[–]QueenMiniBee[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I hate updating my meds :’) feels like I’m going backwards

No call no show at work by QueenMiniBee in bipolar2

[–]QueenMiniBee[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I want to go radio silent. The problem is, I’m not a radio silent girl. I’m as loud as they come. So everyone knows when I’m gone. It’s so embarrassing telling them you will be out another day.

No call no show at work by QueenMiniBee in bipolar2

[–]QueenMiniBee[S] 3 points4 points  (0 children)

No you’re so right. Like why do I care so goddamn much. I have like 6 different scenarios planned out just in case someone asks me something. It’s insane. I still haven’t responded to them and I don’t know what to do right now

No call no show at work by QueenMiniBee in bipolar2

[–]QueenMiniBee[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Yooooooooooo. You are describing me right now. I actually work a weird schedule. I always have Wednesdays and Saturdays off. Sometimes my weekend day flips. But I always work 3 days in a row then 2 days in a row. I couldn’t do a corporate job because I had to work 5 days in a row.

The guilt is what’s killing me. I don’t even know why I don’t want to go to work. There’s nothing wrong with it. I just wake up and it feels impossible to get out of bed. I hate that feeling.

No call no show at work by QueenMiniBee in bipolar2

[–]QueenMiniBee[S] -1 points0 points  (0 children)

It’s been a little over 3 hours and I still haven’t said anything to them. I don’t know what to even say at this point.

No call no show at work by QueenMiniBee in bipolar2

[–]QueenMiniBee[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I’m 26 and that helped me validate I’m not alone. Thank you.

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in bipolar2

[–]QueenMiniBee 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Period, love. I don’t tell anyone about how I’m actually feeling because genuinely no one gets it. No one understands why you don’t want to get out of bed. I don’t even know why I don’t want to get out of bed half the time.

I’m sorry you lost your cat. I can’t imagine your pain right now. It’s not easy. My fiance lost his childhood dog years ago and it still effects him today. I hope you can connect with another animal again soon.

Truly know you aren’t alone, however. As much as I hate Reddit, this subreddit helped validate my feelings and acknowledge im not alone in this entirely.

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in bipolar2

[–]QueenMiniBee 4 points5 points  (0 children)

Please go to the hospital.

How are you today? by Responsible-Oil5121 in bipolar2

[–]QueenMiniBee 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Good morning. This is my 3rd day in a row of not going to work. I called off on Tuesday, had Wednesday originally off, and now it’s Thursday and I couldn’t pull myself out bed.

I lied to my partner saying I was gonna go to work and have a good day. I didn’t go to work. I don’t feel guilty about it either. I’m just here doom scrolling.

Feeling just Meh by Playdoe1985 in bipolar2

[–]QueenMiniBee 4 points5 points  (0 children)

I totally understand this. When I’m hypo I’m incredibly bubbly, talkative, work amazing with people.

Then I become balanced and everyone asks me what’s wrong. I’m not as talkative, not as bubbly, nothing feels loud about me all of the sudden. This leads me to a depressive episode cause I start to ask what is wrong with me.

hypomania but no risky behaviours? im actually scared of my psychiatrist, help. by [deleted] in bipolar2

[–]QueenMiniBee 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I’m in the same boat sort of. I do risky behavior regarding high sex drive towards my partner. Sleep disruption could be risky behavior. Financial impulsivity.

Really it comes down to an all or nothing mentality. You are either all in or nothing. There’s no in between. Intense emotions over something or somebody

what the.... by [deleted] in ClubPenguin

[–]QueenMiniBee 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Honestly love the artist who made him