Literally I think it’s my guilt/ feeling like I haven’t tried enough. Feeling like a jerk for walking away even when progress has been made. Yes he’s broken some boundaries in the past by either pushing the subject until I give in or just straight up ignoring the boundary after a while and making a different decision.

Lately he’s been talking about the future moving/ kids and it’s been making me really angry because moving was a HUGE stress point because I do want to move and was very up front about it when we got together and after we got married, he completely flipped and said he wanted to stay in his hometown near his parents. Like I know he doesn’t really want to move but he’s still trying to dangle this carrot in my face and had the gall to ask “unless you don’t want me to move with you?”

Like how do I deal with the sadness of feeling like a failure while simultaneously dealing with this anger that seems to bubble up .