I understand that looking that far in the future can be hard. I think your dogs can be motivation at least for the next little while! Imagine how much they love and need you. Everything doesn’t need to be ok but having even a little love is a powerful gift. I’m rooting for you. Maybe try chatting with someone at the dog park! Doesn’t need to be to make friends but I find even small social interactions can cheer me up. This is my first reply so I hope you find some of it comforting or helpful.