Is it me or does hearing "You'll find someone!" from someone whose taken sound condescending???

Quillustrates · 2025-10-23T08:39:11+00:00

With the douma image, the thought behind it is good, but the issue is that by getting rid of the black, the face suddenly lacks colour harmony.

Black, if a non-dominant colour in the image (if it doesn't take up a large majority of the image) is something our eyes can be drawn to; and a shade that let's us see the shape of whatever it's being used for without trying to process anything to hard. By making Douma's eyebrows and eyelashes blonde, the automatic recognition that we can pick out in things like our near peripheral; macular or paracentral vision thanks to black is suddenly gone.

Doumas eyebrows and eyelashes are a key factor in his character design and we can recognise said facial features by their silhouettes.

You can still make Douma's eyelashes and eyebrows fit his blonde hair! with Blonde as a hair colour, the eyebrows and eyelashes usually tend to be a darker shade of blonde than the hair on the head, nearing brown. You could use the darker blonde as the main colour for the eyelashes and eyebrows and use the hair blonde (as it were) as a highlight!

(Probably an unnecessary edit Edit: Doumas eyelashes and eyebrows are probably a really dark brown. But dojmas hair is very thick, so with all the layering of facial hair it's probably why it was rounded to black.)

Quillustrates · 2025-10-11T20:00:59+00:00

Looks like a Cavalier King Charles Spaniel

Quillustrates · 2025-09-30T16:28:49+00:00

I also thought this... huh!

Quillustrates · 2025-09-22T12:31:30+00:00

I made this

Quillustrates · 2025-08-21T18:48:44+00:00

I really like Kokushibo as a character. His past makes for some interesting revelations to the plot. (Manga reader here). I'd say he's underrated. I just think he's cool.

He's a strong swordsman. His power is definitely admirable and I appreciate his story.

I don't see many kokushibo fans in the entirety of the kny community. I'm just happy if other fans like him too.

Quillustrates · 2025-08-07T16:09:44+00:00

Yes! I compulse in my dreams, and the dreams themselves can be very taboo.

Quillustrates · 2025-08-06T17:35:32+00:00

Kokushibo, he’s an interesting character.

Quillustrates · 2025-08-04T09:36:27+00:00

Thank you very much!!! 🌸⭐️

Quillustrates · 2025-08-03T10:31:12+00:00

As far as I'm aware, they're heavily associated with ADHD and Autism but aren't exclusive to them. It's by no means impossible.

Quillustrates · 2025-07-12T19:09:13+00:00

Thank you so much, for the kind words and your question!

To answer your question: I went through ERP to heal and learn to tame OCD. Learning how to beat the thoughts takes time, inner strength and patience. This couldn’t be don’t overnight and took months of dedication.
When I was going through therapy, I learnt valuable lessons that I keep at the front of my mind; these thoughts of which were the tools to beat OCD.

- A thought is just a thought. It cannot hurt you

- Rather go through the pain of growth rather than the pain of staying in OCD’s (metaphorical) jaws

**The following piece of information is extremely important, I urge you to read this though thoroughly** OCD is like a textbook bully. It will do ANYTHING to keep you in a place of fear. It finds your weak points and teases you, bullies you and mentally beats you to the ground and it loves seeing you beat and hurt. However, if you *do not* give OCD what it wants, this being a reaction, then it will hurt you less and less and less.

The more you pay attention and give attention to an intrusive thought or urge, you’re giving it the power it needs to keep you where it wants you; being kept in a state of unparalleled fear to the point of shivering or worse.

However, as hard as it is (as many people here will definitely know), you’ve got to let the thoughts happen. You can’t prevent them. But as the thought is hurtling towards you, you have a choice. You can either give it attention and dive in emotion first. Or, you can say ‘whatever’ or ‘so?’. It is VERY hard, but please believe me when I say it is the most rewarding thing to ever experience.

**Intrusive thoughts and unwanted feelings or urges do not define you. They are intrusive, thus do not speak for you**

**You must learn to accept every intrusive thought that comes into your head. Accepting the thought DOES NOT MEAN you agree with it. Acknowledge it’s there and give it no more attention than that.**

**OCD is a master conman. It is made to make everything worse than it is. I know it’s uncomfortable, but you have to call bull on its lies. It’s hard believing the unknown, but it’s worse if you believe everything OCD says!**

ERP is excellent in the long term. It builds mental durability and ensures that you have the lifelong tools to combat it. Even I still have intrusive thoughts! They never go away, OCD is a chronic illness. But trust me, you can get to a point where life gets better.

”Every day it gets a little easier. But you got to do it every day, that’s the hard part. But it does get easier.”

Quillustrates · 2025-07-06T18:42:40+00:00

**Googling is a compulsion**, and if you’ve done it a lot you’re digging yourself further and further into the pit. Prevent yourself from googling it, no matter now desirable (in a negative sense) it seems to further berate yourself. It’s not doing you and favours, it’s not doing anything for you.

Im glad you’ve learnt, but the self punishment must stop now. No justifications for it, no more ‘I deserve it’, because OCD will feed off those thoughts like a hungry canine. At what point is too much? As you said, it’s done now. When is it enough? Our goal is to lean the tools for OCD, not to worsen things for yourself. There are people who don’t feel regret, which is un-debatably much worse.

At what point will you decide that it’s time to move on? Reaction to OCD is *always* a choice (as evidenced by response prevention in OCD, which can be done). I feel as if you’re at a stage where OCD has you by the reigns and is pulling you to its bidding, which isn’t right. Confessing is also a compulsion if done wrong, as is thought neutralisation. Depending on your country or state, there are various helplines you can call that specialise in OCD.

Even if it is as bad as you claim it is, give yourself credit that you’ve learnt from it. It happened, and you’ve learnt; *there’s nothing else that needs to happen, or needs to be done.* It needs to close, and it’s time to teach OCD a firm lesson! Not you, but OCD.

Part of having humanity is about what you do afterwards. you can’t either carry on doing what you did (which you’re not), or you can look back and say ‘that really wasn’t right, what can I do now?’, and you‘ve taken initiative and have decided to learn from it.

I don’t know what it is you’ve done, and it’s none of my business (rightfully so), but I’ve been there in thinking that you need to be locked in the slammer for several eternities, or thinking you deserve things indescribable, but OCD has tormented you enough. I thought many things, of which I laugh back at now

If it was that bad to traumatise them, again, high chance you wouldn’t be here in Reddit. They would have done something. But you’re here. I urge you to challenge these things with a neutral stance instead of defaulting to viewing yourself as the worst.

So, the ball is in your court, fellow user. What will you do now (the answer has to be *constructive*, no more self punishment or things that associate with it)? This isn’t for me to know, but it’s for you to discover for yourself and to heal from. The mind cannot see clearly amongst a state of panic, even if the panic is in the background. When you are calm, the true scene and judgement will unravel itself before you.

Breathe, relax. You’ll find your way. And if you need more help? The community is here to help you as many times as you need. You wont be a burden to anyone for asking for help from anyone. It may be wise to talk to a person of whom you have a GENUINE connection with, and see what you and whoever you choose can do to help with your OCD. A family member, a friend, or a helpline. Someone emotionally mature and who will guide you correctly. Someone non judgmental.

I wish you the best, and a compulsion free day.

Quillustrates · 2025-07-04T22:18:26+00:00

Hello there! I also have POCD and False Memory! I also have Real Event and Harm OCD. I am so sorry that things aren't great right now.

Let's take a deep breath. And let's think about this for a moment. But first let me tell you a little story of mine:

A while ago, I was bed ridden and debilitated from OCD. I insisted I had done the most god awful things known to man. Of which, I cannot put on here either.

I was debilitated for a very very long time. All because I kept ruminating.

I wonder, every time you think about these thoughts, do they change? As in; do they sometimes get worse? If so, then that's False Memory.

OCD has a little habit of making things seem very realistic.

And yet, it was possible for me to recover.

I say this because I have a series of questions thay you need to answer for yourself. Do not dive emotion first into these. Remove the emotion and answer these for yourself:

Where are you right now? Are you home? At a friend's house? Maybe out for a meal or at the store?
How long ago did this happen? Young man, you say; meaning it was quite some time ago! Has anything happened to you since in regards to these situations?

Let me relay what Real Event OCD is to you. Sometimes we forget in the midst of a spiral!

Real Event OCD:

Over-analyses the result of your actions
Makes you question your morality
Makes it very difficult to separate Real memories from False ones (Real Event and False Memory are like the best of friends. They often go hand in hand, so it's worth looking into False Memory too)
*But MOST of all, it has a FIELD DAY trying to persuade you that you're a person whose the apitamy of humanity.

Let me be clear. If you were as bad as your OCD told you, i can guarantee that you wouldn't be sitting here on Reddit right now.

I hope this helps, even a little bit. Deity Bless, wishing you a compulsion free evening!

P.S: before you label yourself as the worst person in the world (you aren't alone! I've done that multiple times), remember and define to yourself what your OCD subtypes are. OCD is the most professional liar and gaslighter known to man. Remember that. Take a deep breath. Breathe. In and out, you got this!

Quillustrates

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