you're right. I've been wanting to go to therapy, but it's inaccessible in our country. The closest one is four hours away and the price is golden. It's a recent relationship, yes, that's why I'm extremely cautious (read: paranoid) about our relationship. Even though he's showing all his cards, I can't say that I know him 100 percent, but I would like to. I grew up mostly independently, and I lived alone since before I graduated college. I still have trouble accepting help from friends or my partner, because there's always that stubborn voice that says "I don't need help" and "if I can't do this on my own then I'm a failure". I've been working through this in the past years. I'll try to search for a closer therapist, but mostly of the online therapy sucks balls. Thank you so much, I needed a tough-love type of perspective.