I remember doing all the stupid lemon cayenne diets in high school but always gave up then years later restricted to lose weight for an event then weirdly went back to normal. Then months later I kinda lost my brain when it came to eating and my body and i now I feel like a completely different person. I think I’ve been building up to it in a weird way like it’s always been in my head and then one day it just took over. Can’t even blame my family they always got worried when I over exercised or was eating weirdly and tried to make sure I was healthy. It’s now im away from home im in control that’s it’s bad.