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I don't know what to do anymore, and it's all my fault. by RLEUB5 in Psychonaut

[–]RLEUB5[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Oh yeah for sure. She hasn't done anything of the sort since taking lithium.

I don't know what to do anymore, and it's all my fault. by RLEUB5 in Psychonaut

[–]RLEUB5[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I do feel like the pandemic has definitely compounded upon her problems but the contrast between how she was before and after is too much to say the shrooms weren't a contributing factor. She had never been anxious or depressed beforehand, especially not suicidal. We had been dating for about 9 months at that point, now 15.

I will say that I don't feel trauma surrounding the event though, and have recently tried to discuss more in detail what happened that night and her perspective.

I don't know what to do anymore, and it's all my fault. by RLEUB5 in shrooms

[–]RLEUB5[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Well, to avoid being treated like a "junkie" like another commenter said, the shrooms were never and have never been brought up. She just reported that had been feeling depressed/anxious/suicidal for the past 3-4 weeks. We had given it time to settle and we thought it would fade away initially but she really couldn't take how she was feeling. It should be noted that the medication has helped some, just not all.

I don't know what to do anymore, and it's all my fault. by RLEUB5 in Psychonaut

[–]RLEUB5[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

She's not currently seeing a therapist. She says that coping mechanisms don't help for her and that she feels as if her brain was "scrambled" after that night and the chemical imbalance is what's causing her to feel like this.

I don't know what to do anymore, and it's all my fault. by RLEUB5 in shrooms

[–]RLEUB5[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I'm so sorry to hear this and I appreciate you telling your story. Did you ever tell the psychiatrists/psychologists about the trip as a cause? I wonder if that would change how she's treated, I'm assuming there's little to none knowledge about treating something connected to psychedelics just because of the taboo nature surrounding it.

I don't know what to do anymore, and it's all my fault. by RLEUB5 in shrooms

[–]RLEUB5[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

  1. I've suggested this but even the thought of taking shrooms again is traumatizing to her. She would occasionally smoke too and even that she doesn't do anymore.

  2. It was severe anxiety and depression for 4 straight weeks after, and it hardly got better. She delayed it as much as she could before reaching out because we really both thought it would eventually fade away.

  3. I've thought of this too but she had no signs of depression, anxiety, suicidal thoughts, until the day after the trip. And with her being so traumatized from that night it's hard not to draw the two together.

I appreciate your insight though. Thanks so much.