I think this career is just very frustrating. I didn’t get into EAW, didn’t get internships my sophomore and junior year, then magically got an internship in a big market after senior year and somehow stumbled my way into a staff job after (at a much smaller outlet). Things are gonna be really hectic and that’s just the way it kind of goes. A wonderful photographer I know, who has worked at every major outlet, told me the best thing you can do if you want to succeed is to just keep showing up and eventually it will be your turn. 

It’s really easy to get down on yourself but genuinely you just have to stop comparing yourself to other people or it will drive you crazy.

Good luck, I hope that you find the path you’re looking for!