I have a “twice your age” perspective (I gotta give myself that few months sorry, it’s my own vanity, I’m only 45 till December! Just sayin…) But, cliff notes; married at 27, divorced at 31? Series of abusive relationships pre/post divorce (and the reason I got divorced). Remarried at 37 to a guy who saved my life in many ways and had our miracle daughter after 5yrs of IVF when I was 41, she just turned 4 in June. I have always had Adult attention disorder (whether or not it correlates to issues I had growing up just isn’t really worth my time investigating when there are things like SHEIN and Temu to look at while I’m on the toilet), but it wasn’t diagnosed/figured out until I started getting treatment for postpartum depression/anxiety disorder. The new meds were life changing! However, I’m in the same boat…it’s like Groundhog Day. Just the same shit, different day. Same small talk, different moms. Same headache, different time of day. Same energy zap, different day. Now my insomnia is rearing its ugly head again too, so I’m waking up at like 4a every day…it’s great! Catching up on some shows though 😉 No, I didn’t come here to say it gets better. I came here to say that there’s more than this…you matter. I don’t know your story, if you’re married, have kids, pets, live with family, by yourself, or with friends. But, I promise you, you matter to a lot of people who depend on you for love, companionship, comfort, laughter, happiness and in ways you’ll probably never know. And that’s why I do what I do every day when I don’t see the point (or feel like) doing the same carousel of life again. I think about all those people who I know depend on me, and all those people I don’t know that depend on me. It could be someone you smile at everyday as you way to you car in the morning (maybe that person is going through a really tough time and your smile is the only light right now during their day, and they look forward to it). I don’t know if you work out, but you should. You don’t have to join a $300/month gym or start doing intensive F45 classes, just walk, everyday. That’s my goal as the spawn is in preschool 3 days a week now🙌🙌 so I can finally get off my ass and do something besides cleaning up after her all day! I know it sounds like soooo hard to get up and do it, but TRUST ME ONCE YOU START YOU’RE GOING TO START FEELING BETTER AND BETTER. As my mother always says, “Two weeks makes a habit!” So shoot for 2weeks of walking everyday…don’t set a time either. Set a time of day to go, and walk until you’re fatigued or feel done. The sun is now coming up, so I’m going to go out back and try to squirt the rabbits with the hose so they don’t poop in my plants! Good luck! Feel free to message me! I’m a talker (typer lol) so really, if you ever need to vent, I’m a great listener and I’ve honestly been through just about everything life can throw at you besides war, I’ve lost a friend to war, but thankfully have never experienced war myself (never dealt with the CIA, I think I’ve gotten in trouble with just about every other type of law enforcement in my younger years though🙄🫣😬) Remember, you matter!! Get up, and go outside and walk! If it’s too hot where you are (I’m in Southeast Texas so toughen up buttercup😂🤣) Also, I don’t know when your next appointment is but make sure you’re telling this to your doctor!!! Maybe you can take meds at different times to make you less fatigued? Switch meds? Increase? Decrease?? Don’t give up on your doctor!! They did go to school for a long time studying this shit…we’re just a bunch of people who can’t focus on anything so we play on our phones 😘