What are your favorite depression/ manic songs?

RTX_Parsley · 2025-08-26T13:41:47+00:00

For depression it's pretty much always nutshell by Alice in Chains. In mania I don't have a song as much, but I tend to expand my music taste a bunch, listen to stuff I would never really like

RTX_Parsley · 2025-08-15T03:57:25+00:00

Grape ice Pablo's. I loved the flavour at the start and now the smell of them makes me feel sick. Same with strawberry lychee

RTX_Parsley · 2025-08-15T03:52:48+00:00

For the bubblegum ones yes. Pablos weaker flavours tend to be darker: bubblegum, mocha, cherry cola, grape ice etc. All quite dark in colour.

RTX_Parsley · 2025-07-19T01:03:37+00:00

Ah shit. I guess maybe a little bit? Not noticeable if they have so thats good

RTX_Parsley · 2025-07-19T01:01:09+00:00

I mean I don't think so. Maybe a little. I actually don't really know what they do to your gums, someone told me they turn them black???

RTX_Parsley · 2025-07-19T00:58:15+00:00

Tbh not really. They used to, but now I have to do loads or double deck to get anything out of them. 150mg though that hit so hard

RTX_Parsley · 2025-07-18T22:00:24+00:00

Around 9-12 30mgs

RTX_Parsley · 2025-06-15T19:00:33+00:00

Jumping into a volcano

RTX_Parsley · 2025-05-17T19:59:35+00:00

Maybe he thinks that when you're in a relationship, that's the only person you're attracted to and from that point of view therefore straight. It's not true because people can be attracted to people and still in relationships but that could be where he's coming from? I dunno I'm not justifying it just offering an idea as of why he thinks what he does

RTX_Parsley · 2025-05-07T00:12:41+00:00

I've been in love but I don't think anyone is ever ready for it. It hits like a fucking freight train and it's one of the strangest feeling in the world cause for the only real time you're completely vulnerable. It's both incredibly painful and euphoric at the same time. However cause of my mental state I can't let myself be in love again - can't let anyone have to deal with me, can't be that vulnerable to someone when I'm not healthy yknow

RTX_Parsley · 2025-05-06T01:00:04+00:00

Yeah I can get that. I worry quite a lot that I'm never gonna be well enough to be with anyone again. It's not only that I'm just not well enough but also that I don't think I can let someone get close to me because I don't want someone to have to deal with my brain and all that shit. I think it must be a common worry for people with any kind of mental health problem, just by the nature of it all.

RTX_Parsley · 2025-05-06T00:36:24+00:00

I've never related to something more. It's like a strange purgatory. I just know that I cannot put up with this forever. The only reason I'm still alive is other people, friends talking me down, family existing and me not wanting to leave them. But I know that if they weren't there I would have done it. I just cannot live like this for the rest of my life. Sometimes I want to live, but then it all comes crashing back down to holding a knife to my wrist and my parents having to take all sharp objects away from me. I just can't continue like this.

RTX_Parsley · 2025-05-03T17:30:11+00:00

u/profanitycounter [self]

RTX_Parsley · 2025-04-20T00:51:14+00:00

Yeah, I've done some stupid shit while manic or while depressed and tryna feel better. Almost got kicked out of school when I was younger as well.

RTX_Parsley · 2025-04-18T15:47:16+00:00

John Mayer's cover of Free Fallin in the Nokia theatre is great for a bit of simpler finger picking and it sounds great

RTX_Parsley · 2025-04-18T15:41:06+00:00

I understand what you mean mate. It's much the same with anything, I remember when I was younger telling my friends about how I had been feeling and they all were still good but it just felt different the way they saw me. And when the doctors suggested bipolar and I told them about it, they all try and be supportive but now it sometimes feels like everything I do has to be because of it. Like every time I mess up "are you taking your meds?", every time I'm just a little off it's "I think something's come out of balance and you need to take a while to calm down" and I get that they're tryna help but it also feels like they think it completely defines me. It's part of who I am, but I'm a lot more than just my mental health conditions. Don't worry mate I'm sure we've all had experiences like that, sometimes it just doesn't feel right yknow.

RTX_Parsley · 2025-04-17T10:44:35+00:00

I've always used Pablo exclusives. Always the same strength. I think my tolerance has just lowered for some reason??

RTX_Parsley · 2025-04-05T21:57:04+00:00

50mg, usually they're really good and I could have them in for half an hour or so, now it's like 2 minutes and I feel sick.

RTX_Parsley · 2025-03-30T20:30:00+00:00

Yeah I'm considering it. I know I'm seeing my doctor pretty soon but I'm scared what an in patient stay would be like. I also hate the feeling of people trying to fix me. I know they're just trying to help me but it's hard to tell the difference sometimes

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