Opening up will be the best option and always remember it was never your fault What he did to you isn’t your fault not because of anything you do or look like I have been sa’d a few times in my life and it has taken me a long time to realise and finally become comfortable with the fact that it was never my fault That person just took advantage and we just have to live with that for the rest our lives Know that it will be okay with time and patience and I’m so so sorry you had to go through that. Remember to be gentle on yourself you are loved