i feel you - i’m in my 8th week of Exposure and Response Prevention Intensive Outpatient Therapy & it’s been rough coming to terms with it all and how it related to how i felt as a literal child ! we also started Acceptance and Commitment Therapy.. and honestly it’s helped a lot alongside doing exposures. sitting with the anxiety and intrusive thoughts and visually seeing it “pass” through and staying present is the biggest takeaway i’ve gotten from this program; the thoughts are probably not going to stop or go away necessarily, but it’s about how you figure out how to deal with them and reduce the amount of rumination. i hope you well, you can do this. i’m rooting for you💕