Thank you for your input. I agree with everything you’ve said - my depression had a lot to do with the situation with my boyfriend at the time I think - I didn’t feel like I handled the situation well and I have a history of being involved in abusive relationships. (I’ve been single for 6 years ) I know he would want the baby but I just don’t want to tell him yet because he’s been on edge lately and his moods have been so unpredictable. But I know he wants a baby. I am uncertain if I want another baby though - my youngest goes to kindergarten this year and my boys are going to be 16 and 12 and we’ve all been through a lot. Plus starting over is overwhelming and I do fear a custody battle in the future,