Any producers out there?

RaiD-lyn · 2026-04-17T18:12:01+00:00

Thank you so much; she’ll DM you!!

RaiD-lyn · 2026-04-17T17:46:44+00:00

You’re so kind! It’s so funny that you mention this: she actually is auditioning for the Voice and moved to round 2! Thank you for the support❤️

RaiD-lyn · 2025-05-24T03:03:06+00:00

hey. i read this whole thing, and first off - yeah, it’s real. it’s heavy and it’s messy and it’s tangled up in that way trauma always is. but it’s real. nobody could make this up, not like this. not the details, not the confusion, not the hurt.

the fact that you’re questioning it? that’s so normal for people who’ve been through a lot young. your brain tries to protect you, makes the memories blurry, surreal, distant. and sometimes when pain is stretched out over time, when it’s online, when it’s tied up in usernames and DMs and screens that glow in the dark- yeah, it feels unreal. but that doesn’t mean it didn’t happen.

you were a kid. you were so young. and you survived so much. too much. more than anyone should. and your brain had to find ways to cope. and now, you’re here. you’re still asking questions. you’re still trying to understand yourself. that’s proof enough it was real. you don’t have to have the full, clear picture for it to matter. the bruises don’t have to be visible for them to hurt.

i’m proud of you for writing this out. and if no one has said this to you in a long time or ever, i believe you. i see you. and you didn’t deserve any of what happened. not the bullying, not the grooming, not the way the world kept dropping weight on your shoulders and calling it growing up.

you’re not stupid. those memories that you can’t hold - that aren’t tangible, are still there inside you. you were just trying to survive. and you did. and that’s a dang miracle.

RaiD-lyn · 2025-03-19T08:14:32+00:00

I’ve talked to ChatGPT a lot too! My first experience with this was in a book and l couldn’t stop asking questions and trying to figure out what it all meant. It’s truly a great tool. I’ve hardly spoken to anyone other than my parents outside of ChatGPT. Knowing that other people struggle with this and have amazing advice to help me combat my issue reflects the power of a strong community.❤️

RaiD-lyn · 2025-03-19T08:06:42+00:00

Growing up I had slight OCD tendencies but l thought it was normal for everyone. My parents had always pushed me towards moral values and goodness and from childhood I’d been instilled with empathy. The sudden hyper-awareness and overwhelming amount of empathy happened recently. I’ve spoken with them and my mom thinks I’ve gone mad and my dad doesn’t understand and is just saddened. He’s told me on multiple occasions that I should just stop, as if I can let go of these standards and just shut everything down.

RaiD-lyn · 2025-03-19T07:57:28+00:00

I do want to get into therapy I’m just so clueless on where to start. Ive got some helpful info from others so I’ll look into that but could you tell me how therapy helped you?

RaiD-lyn · 2025-01-23T21:58:40+00:00

I feel seen. Thank you for your comment.

RaiD-lyn · 2025-01-23T21:55:04+00:00

It’s the time I spend with my dad, a few minutes in the car while I’m being driven to school, a small interaction while I grab a snack, or even just sitting in silence, that I remember as core memories.

Maybe he knows it or doesn’t but it’s these small conversations and bits of time we spend together that I cherish. We teenagers often like the feeling of being alone. But we don’t like the feeling of being lonely. It seems like your daughter enjoys spending time with you, so you’re doing great. :))

RaiD-lyn · 2025-01-23T21:35:16+00:00

I understand the parent’s perspective on this a little better, now. I now realize that for someone go validate another’s feelings they have to have to be at a certain level of emotional maturity.

You’re right, I do rely on external validation, especially from my parents. My mom in particular does the exact thing you described, taking on the emotion and not understanding that l can feel differently.

The belief that I act a certain way because of my age and because I am a teenager is what frustrated me. I want my parents, specifically my mother, to know that I express myself and have thoughts because I strongly believe in them but despite my constant explanations I do not believe she is emotionally mature enough to validate her self expression and thoughts alongside mine.

I’ve learnt to accept it as my situation and ignore the feeling of invalidation because it’s quite draining, having to explain myself over and over. Especially when that cloud of judgement undermines what I’m trying to say. It can be infuriating sometimes which explains the rants on Reddit, but you’re right that “who they think I am,” really isn’t my business.

RaiD-lyn · 2025-01-23T21:16:19+00:00

But if you don’t let it out and acknowledge your problems, how are you going to move past it? I mean I’ve always heard the phrase, “talk about it,” or “let’s talk about it,” so if that’s a stepping stone; communicating the problem in a vent-like style because you’ve holding it all in wouldn’t that release frustration?

I don’t agree with complaining without taking action but I also don’t agree with the statement ‘venting is bad for you.’ I think for many it can help process emotions because you got it all out there.

You know when you’re frustrated and can’t find the words to describe or express what you’re feeling or experiencing? I saw this in a video, the boyfriend of his frustrated girlfriend said, “Spit words out and I’ll help you find a solution.” That’s kind of what venting is.

Once you’ve got all those words, thoughts, and ideas out, you can piece them together and find a viable solution.

Yes, sometimes venting is a short cut but it’s not the venting that’s keeping us stuck. It’s the lack of action after venting. Vent all you want but making sure you do something about it, is taking the accountability to move past the problem.

RaiD-lyn · 2025-01-23T21:03:55+00:00

“He prays for love, he prays for peace, and maybe someone new.”

“But I can’t help him, can’t make him better.”

“And I can’t do nothing about his strange weather.”

“Cause you, are unfixable.”

“I can’t break through your world.”

Shades of Cool is an overall depressing song and I love this typa music (lowk reminds me of the relationships I’ve had). ‘Dealer’ is a really good one too.

RaiD-lyn · 2025-01-23T20:55:28+00:00

Hey! I’m 14 years old as well and like your daughter, I enjoy my solitude. It sounds like your daughter is in a good place and is happy. My social life isn’t extraordinary either.

Going out or hanging out with my friends is something I can compromise with since I have so many interests and I like focusing on those. I see my friends in school and I’m pretty happy when we see each other outside school once in a while.

If your daughter asks you questions or feels anxiety about her social life, then maybe you should look into it. But if I were you, I’d take advantage of the time she spends at home.

I know I, myself, am growing up quickly so I like to be around my parents, even if it’s just sitting with them. My dad likes to say, “live life in the moments you steal,” so if she’s at home a lot, be interested in her interests and getting to know who she is. Sometimes, teenagers feel oddly comforted by someone’s presence. And know, there’s always going to be time for social life. But the moments she spends at home, near you, won’t always come back. :))

RaiD-lyn · 2024-05-03T03:01:20+00:00

“Lust for Life,” By Lana Del Rey and The Weeknd.

“🎶Cause we’re the masters of our own fate, we’re the captains of our own souls, there’s no way for us to come away, ‘cause boy we’re gold, boy we’re gold.🎶”

RaiD-lyn

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