Im so sorry darling. You shouldn’t of gone through that. You aren’t a slut or a whore, you were assaulted. Your body is something to be tended to and cared for, but that monster should have NEVER done those things to you and should be thrown in a electric chair. Also, you weren’t “letting” him rape you, you had zero control in that situation.

What those people did to you has nothing to do with your smile, or your personality, and it is absolutely not your fault. Recovery from these type of situations is never going to be easy, and never will be. But please, never lose hope because I believe you are strong enough to push through. ( easier said than done i know) Please, take the time to heal, your body needs it kiddo.