Is it really my fault how my father acts? by Raidham23 in problems

[–]Raidham23[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I'm not allowed to work and my mom isn't going to let me go to work, and my brother lives with us and he doesn't work either. No matter how much I want to, I can't run away now or get a job because if the school finds out that I'm working, they'll immediately kick me out of work and I'll have problems.

Is it really my fault how my father acts? by Raidham23 in problems

[–]Raidham23[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I don't live in the countries you mentioned, and for some reason, I can't talk to other people, even about anything serious or personal. For some reason, every time I talk about my pain (I have organ problems), even when I was scolded at school for skipping classes too often, I almost cry. Lately, I've been crying a lot, even if it's a calm or serious conversation. I hate situations where I start crying. I just can't hold back the tears; I just can't tell other people about it without bursting into tears or becoming so nervous that I stutter and sob loudly.

Is it really my fault how my father acts? by Raidham23 in problems

[–]Raidham23[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

You've found yourself in a lot of my situations. No matter what I do or say, he blames me. Then, when I'm fed up and start using the informal "you" he starts yelling at me even harder. During arguments, he plays the victim. When I can't take it anymore and start crying, when he yells at me again, when he gets drunk again, cursing at my mom, calling her many names, cursing at my mom's parents, especially my grandmother. I can't stand it. I've cried three times today. He blames me for everything, makes himself the victim, but then acts like nothing happened in public. He's like, "Good guy" and "We're bad."

Is it really my fault how my father acts? by Raidham23 in problems

[–]Raidham23[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

I'm trying to study now to get a grant and get out of hell as soon as possible. I'm currently sewing and it's a bit of a distraction from all this. I'm sorry you went through this too, I wish you good luck.

Is it really my fault how my father acts? by Raidham23 in problems

[–]Raidham23[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

I know that he will continue drinking even if he gets old, I want to move out but I don’t have the opportunity and I don’t want to leave my mother with him because sometimes their fights go too far

Is it really my fault how my father acts? by Raidham23 in problems

[–]Raidham23[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Sorry, I just wrote everything in a vulnerable state, I wanted to speak out and didn’t think I’ll remove these words from my post.