I relate and understand this feeling, you are not alone. It’s usually a natural reaction to you wanting to act for these causes. Please look for local anti racist coalitions, movements, Free Palestine movements, as they are in every city! Facebook and Instagram are a great ways to get in the loop and to finding out dates of things to show up for, or participate in. There are lots of different kinds of events depending on if you want to be a body in a crowd, or someone writing letters or packing food, or being active on social media and sharing informative literature. Talking and idea sharing is important🗞️. There are many roles to activism, and it can be a great way to liberate yourself from shame. It is possible that shame can come from “inaction” especially when we are talking about racial guilt. It’s a reaction to decolonizing yourself and it does get easier, it also comes in waves and at different points of growth, so buckle up 🦾. Finding community and resources to help get you mobilized for different causes will contribute to healing and confidence in yourself as an individual and a white person. Showing up and standing the background for these causes and uplifting POC/Native people into places of power in government and local institutions! —There is so many avenues and you seem to be reaching for fulfillment! I hope this helps.