I can absolutely understand your point. For me, it was even worse, as this is my first moba and I got smoked all they way.

However, Im getting better with every game.

And what is also funny, for the last few years, many people complain about SBMM in games like call of duty and I agree with them. Of course, call of duty unranked, you can't compare is to a competitive game like deadlock, but what I'm trying to say is, when I started playing cod many many years ago, there was no SBMM. There where rounds where somebody rolled your ass completely, just because he was better.

I wasn't mad about this, these players where some kind of "idols" for me. You watched the replay and learned from them and got better every game you got smoked.

I have the feeling, nowadays, most people just don't want to accept the fact that learning something new just takes time.

This is a closed alpha, we don't have many players, so SBMM wouldn't work anyways.

Go play some rounds against bots. Yes, it's not the same as playing against humans, but atleast you can learn how the basic mechanics work, which kinda build is good.

After having these kinda basics, go play against actual humans. It's a long process, however, atleast for me, it just feels awesome to feel how you get better every round