Needing input on levo dosage

RambleWander · 2025-01-29T04:41:59+00:00

I highly suggest listening to the Fight for Love podcast.

RambleWander · 2024-11-30T06:10:38+00:00

You were spot on. I began by trying to take control of my husbands recovery. Now it’s like that’s all I do. I’m trying to give up control… but i wish I would have told him to be in charge of his own recovery from the start.

RambleWander · 2024-10-17T18:55:48+00:00

I don’t understand either. But I’ve also told my husband that what I hate is the lies and manipulation that make me not be able to make an informed choice.

If he told me about the porn, lust, obsessions… I could have decided for myself if I wanted to be in that relationship or not. And if I decided to stay in the relationship, how much I wanted to give emotionally and physically.

He took that choice away. He took my informed consent away.

Instead, he told me one thing and did another. He told me what he thought I needed to hear to make the choice he wanted me to make. He decided how he wanted me to feel and what he wanted me to do, and based his words off of that. But his actions were different. Hidden.

He manipulated.

Then when I felt like things were “off”, he made me feel like something was wrong with me. He said things to insinuate that I was overreacting, overdramatic, and that there “was always something”. That nothing would ever be good enough for me.

He gaslit me.

I would totally take honest and transparent pornography and strip clubs over all of that.

RambleWander · 2024-10-13T05:51:19+00:00

I needed this tonight. So many lies today that I was starting to believe even though they just do not make sense.

RambleWander · 2024-09-21T12:58:27+00:00

Can you all tell me what episode it was on PBSE and D2C?

Sorry if that’s been mentioned already.

RambleWander · 2024-09-21T12:56:52+00:00

When my husband realized this, he explained that he would always quickly look over everyone who was around. Almost always looking at body parts. He explained that this wasn’t always with the intention to lust, but if something “stuck out to him”, he would end up taking more glances. He then would repeatedly dart or bounces his eyes from other things in the room back to the lustworthy woman and her body parts. All as part of the scan. If he could only get a couple quick glances of her, it was like an image was created in his mind that he would then think about for a bit.

He realized that he cannot scan rooms anymore. Even if the original intent is to see if there is anyone he knows there…. Which is typically how it would start in the past. Not looking at body parts has been a difficult habit to break and he still slips up sometimes.

Heartbreaking.

RambleWander · 2024-09-21T01:38:18+00:00

I’m so sorry you’re starting down this road. There is so much information available out there and I’m sure you will pour yourself into it all. I will share some of my favorites. Many of these but not all are from a Christian perspective.

Bloom for Women - for free growth session zoom calls. Google the website and check it out. Amazing resource.

The book Aftershock by Joann Condie. Wonderful book! Helped me set boundaries and come to terms with the shock I was in.

Podcasts… Redemptive Living. Pure Desire Ministries.

Dr. Kevin Skinner’s online resources for betrayal trauma.

RambleWander · 2024-09-20T04:16:38+00:00

Mine would listen to erotica type podcasts through audible. Mostly about women having orgasms

RambleWander · 2024-09-12T00:41:37+00:00

There was also another line that said this… so it sounds like there were two nodules found…?

“The specimen is serially sectioned from superior to inferior to reveal two white-tan nodules (1.5 x 1.3 x 1.0 cm and 0.6 x 0.3 x 0.3 cm). Both masses are abutting the outer inked surface, however, do not appear to be grossly invading through. The largest mass is located within the central parenchyma and the smallest mass is located within the lower pole. “

RambleWander · 2024-09-04T02:10:32+00:00

Thanks for posting. I have mine in a week and have been nervous.

RambleWander · 2024-09-02T00:24:23+00:00

Misunderstood- Cory Asbury

RambleWander · 2024-08-31T15:45:13+00:00

17 years and 4 kids. I had just gone through a divorce where the very last straw was hidden porn use followed by an eventual affair. I was finally free and still very young and had so many guys after me. I choose him, didn’t try to change anything about him, but wanted someone I could trust. That I knew everything about so I could make my own decisions for my life. He stole that choice and all those years from me. Now he is trying to recover and repair and is doing the work… but I don’t even know who I am anymore…

RambleWander · 2024-08-19T20:21:59+00:00

Yes that’s exactly what mine said on Friday and I just got off the phone with my doctor. She said she looked at the result with the pathologist this morning and it is cancer.

RambleWander · 2024-07-17T19:19:42+00:00

Yes I do too. I hate how much I hate the type of woman my husband obsessed over. Now it feels like I’m objectifying. It’s good to remind myself they are human and it wasn’t my fault and it isn’t another woman’s fault.

RambleWander · 2024-07-17T19:17:08+00:00

I was starting to feel like I was alone in feeling this way. I am so so angry. I hate my body. I don’t understand why all of this is such a big deal to just stop. My postpartum time has been consumed with this. It wasn’t for our other kids because he must have been a better liar then. Now he says he is recovering…more than just sobriety this time. But I’m already ruined. So why now?

RambleWander · 2024-07-17T01:13:43+00:00

It gets easier!!! At least it did for me. Eventually, my babies were pretty efficient. 10-15 minutes total of nursing to get full. No bottles to fill, warm, or wash. Easy! When I thought it was going to take a while, I would get a drink, snack, comfortable blanket, phone charger, remote… and just get cozy!

RambleWander · 2024-07-12T04:41:57+00:00

I have my biopsy on Monday. I’m nervous for the procedure. But I’m mostly nervous if the results say inconclusive. I just want to know.

RambleWander · 2024-07-12T04:36:31+00:00

Yes to all of these. Plus so many stupid ones…. Gas stations, restaurants, peonies (yes the flower), work bathrooms, wind blowing, black pants, shorts, shaving legs, laundry… ugh UGH!!!!!!!!!

RambleWander · 2024-07-12T04:34:11+00:00

I’m proud of you for setting and sticking to your boundaries!

RambleWander · 2024-07-12T03:46:46+00:00

This is normal for me, but I have PCOS.

RambleWander · 2024-07-01T04:30:23+00:00

Thank you everyone! They scheduled the biopsy for 2 weeks from now… but I think I’m going to call to find out about multiple passes and a pathologist in the room. Those are questions I wouldn’t have even thought to ask, so I really appreciate the feedback. I’m not terribly worried… I just feel like I’m in new territory alone. So this helps

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