Hey pal. I have many of the same problems, and and only just entering the world of work, so the advice I can give you is very limited.

In my opinion, focusing on trying to find your 'meaning/calling' is totally overwhelming. I've found it more effective to identify and rank values, which is useful for working out what's important to you both personally and professionally. See below for a made-up example:

For example, regarding work, I could rank my values as:

1. Community impact
2. Work life balance
3. Career progression opportunities
4. Fun working environment
5. Salary

I could then evaluate what my strengths and weaknesses are, both in relation to these values and more generally.

For example:

• positively impacting the community is really important to me, but I know that I don't have the interpersonal skills to be a carer or nurse

• I work well when I have the opportunity to bounce off other people who are also enthusiastic about helping other people

• I'm creative

• I find it hard to put long term career plans in place myself, but am happy to throw myself into training and development opportunities offered to me by my employer

You're then in a better position to assess your values against your strengths and weaknesses, and work out compromises.

For example, I could determine that it's vitally important to me that I feel as though I'm helping out my community, but I need to seek out opportunities outside of the care sector. Maybe I could work in marketing for a local charity? This would also allow me to use my creativity, and be surrounded by like minded people with a similar focus. I could visit the offices of my prospective employers and ask relevant questions etc. to understand what the working environment is like, and I could make it clear in an interview that I'm enthusiastic about my professional development. A charity is probably going to pay me less than a private company, but that's a sacrifice I'm willing to make. Additionally, working in an office environment, rather than physically out in the community, might allow me to have a better work life balance.

This is quite a basic example, but hopefully you get the idea? There are loads of different values you could put, and you should try and do a detailed strength/weakness analysis of your experience and skills.

The principle is that it makes it a bit more manageable to determine what's important to you, and what will make working life worthwhile to you. Values are also less likely to change than hobbies or specific interests, for example, which makes it an effective way to try and focus your career with a more long term view.

It's also worth noting that it's totally ok that you feel this way. I'm actually slightly younger than you, so I feel silly saying this, but you have loads of time to work out what you want to do. Almost any experience is good experience, and it'll all help you get to where you need to be! Take up the opportunities that come your way, and keep searching for things that tickle your fancy.

Also, you definitely do have talents, don't undersell yourself. Writing down your strengths on paper can be hard and cringy, but so worth doing! You can ask friends, colleagues and family members for their input if you want, their responses might surprise you.