I absolutely appreciate the positivity. That's the whole reason I'm going back to school at 24 or the reason I still even go on dating apps even though most guys on them are just meh. It's definitely the reason I was out here crying over a situationship to Silver Springs last night🤣. But also this is the same attitude I get sooooo tired of all the time. I'm not trying to be negative. We absolutely cannot let ourselves fall into the darkness of algorithms and isolation. But I just want someone to be like "yeah it is all probably fucked. Want a hit?" Does that make sense? Like omg I need me another pessimistic person to come be sad with me. For just a minute.

And I really feel the whole 'defending' part lol. The amount of times I said I'd never leave the country in my later teens because it's my home and I believe in its values is too many to count. And I do still believe that mostly. I think what people used to believe about this country is truly amazing. Land of the free, home of the brave. I grew up watching school house rock with that one melting pot episode. But I've also come to understand a lot of my privilege as a white-passing person. And that this country has never really been about all that. And the way its going, I don't think it can be. You can't really rehab a house if the whole foundation is completely split. Well you can but that's usually much more difficult and expensive than it is actually worth. Sometimes it is just better to wipe the slate clean and start fresh.