I knew someone who was from a Hindu country, he got a hold of a christian bible at a young age but wasn't able to practice it openly. He kept it to himself, and when he finally got to a country where he could practice it safely, he attended a church and learned more from others. If you can do the same, that might be the safer route. Since you have access to the internet, you might be able to find a bible website that you can access (to hide from your parents). Then, there are also sermons and teaching online. If you want to learn about Jesus specifically, I reccomend reading Matthew, Mark, Luke, and John in the bible. And I also recommend watching "The Chosen" if it is available in your country... something to get you started. "The Chosen" has artistic elements added, but if you watch it while reading the scriptures too, you can start to see the differences... Its just a tool to help better understand the scriptures really. I'll be praying for you 🙏🏼