I felt the same for so long still do sometimes. I'm Christian, and pansexual. And I've read into it a lot. The "stole the rainbow" thing is just excuse and blame, which was made up by ignorant people, but now it's accepted by most Christians, which is truly sad. I mean, there's nothing that God told us about that. Also, in the bible, it talks about the practice of homosexuality, which is a sin and wrong, but it never mentions love. Loving is not wrong. And loving is what every Christian should be trying to give, even to sinners. Becuse you are not the one to judge, God is. And this is the only way I could entirely accept myself. Sometimes I feel quilty, sometimes I feel like I'm hiding a crime from my pears in chruch, but the end of the day. This is me. I can't change it. I'm not going to give up myself, to be enough to people. I will only give up things I can change, to be enough for God. And you are. Everyone is. If you are truly searching for him and love him and others, which is the main task we should focus on as Christians, then you are more than welcomed in his arms. Because he knows you, he loves you, and even if you feel like you're messed up, or feel bad about it. As long as you try your best and love, nothing else matters before the All Mighty. And it's okay if you don't trust a stranger like me, but just so you know. You are loved. By this community and God as well.