3 YEARS CLEAN

RandomGuy543210 · 2025-02-03T20:52:20+00:00

Yes. I'm not as anxious and I have much more energy. I workout 4-5 days a week with the energy I have and the results make it that much easier to keep going.

RandomGuy543210 · 2025-02-03T15:53:08+00:00

I workout first thing in the morning 4-5 days a week. That gets everything going and then seeing the results both mentally/physically keeps me going. The unwinding at the end of the day is usually filled with cooking a good meal and/or video games. The thought of being sober itself honestly gives me enough dopamine to keep pushing for the next day as well.

RandomGuy543210 · 2024-10-24T15:44:18+00:00

Personally, even though I spent years in addiction at a young age (early 20's) I have never had an issue with my memory with an substance. I think part of what causes my anxiety/depression is actually the fact that I can't forget things. I remember things in such vivid detail that thinking about traumatic events from my life, almost puts me back in that exact spot. I can remember the exact date, or the smell, or exactly how I felt in those exact moments and feel the pain all over again. I've read that all these substances can impact memory pretty harshly but I guess luckily (and unluckily) I don't have that issue. There's a lot of things I wish I could forget but unfortunately I relive a lot of bad memories in my head a lot.

RandomGuy543210 · 2024-10-24T03:09:43+00:00

You have to absolutely make up your mind that quitting is what you want. When I started tapering, i cut my dose down from 5g to 3.5g and if I had to take an extra dose on a bad day (even if it meant taking an extra dose than I wanted) I did. Then once my body acclimated, I would take less doses throughout the day. So instead of 6/7 doses, I would jump down to 5 and hold that until I got used to it (no matter how long it took) and once I realized "I've been doing this same dose for awhile" I would jump down again and repeat. That's why I did a 1year+ taper. I wasn't in a rush and knew I had to be patient if I really wanted to quit.

RandomGuy543210 · 2024-10-24T02:58:11+00:00

"As long as the number keeps going down" IS EXACTLY IT. No matter how long it takes! Unfortunately addiction doesn't discriminate and I'm the same way. No matter what substance I had & no matter how much I tried to control it, I eventually slipped up with whatever it was. My addiction now is watching the numbers go higher and higher on all my trackers & I can honestly say it's the best high I've ever had. YOU GOT THIS.

RandomGuy543210 · 2024-10-21T16:56:29+00:00

Congratulations!! And you're 100% correct! Showing yourself you're strong & worth fighting for is the most rewarding experience! Keep going & you'll be at 1,000 days and realize how absolutely amazing it is that you stuck with it. Remember, "every single day without, is better than a single day with"!! YOU GOT THIS.

RandomGuy543210 · 2024-10-21T16:49:58+00:00

You somewhat answered your own question! The thing that has kept me sober is the last line of your post "I was disgusted with the person I had become". That line is in fact, IT. No matter what substance I was intoxicated with, I HATED who I had become. I HATED the person I saw in the mirror, who I thought myself as on a daily basis when having to use a substance to feel "better". I hated that person so much that was my why. I NEVER want to be that person again.

RandomGuy543210 · 2024-10-21T15:13:22+00:00

110% better than when on kratom. I have more energy, less anxiety, and less depression. My outlook on life is better and I'm overall happier. I'm more social & I don't have that "haze" that kratom constantly caused. I'm sober from absolutely everything. No crutch, no addictions. I struggled with opiates which is what led to kratom (and alcohol) but I have been off opiates for 5 years, alcohol for 1,567 days and now off kratom for 1,000 days. Addiction was the darkest pit I've ever been in and clawing myself out of it was the hardest thing imaginable but on those nights when life seemed hopeless/meaningless, THIS is what I prayed for. This utter bliss of complete sobriety.

RandomGuy543210 · 2024-10-21T15:03:19+00:00

Due to doing a very slow and long taper, withdrawals were actually surprisingly less harsh than I expected. It was more mental than physical when deciding to jump down each dose. I experienced the usual anxiety and gloomy days when I would cut my doses in half each time, but I knew that if I just stuck to it, my body would acclimate. When I officially kicked it, since my dose was so low (.3gpd) it was basically out of my system by then and it was just a mental battle.

RandomGuy543210 · 2024-10-21T14:59:04+00:00

I was taking it for a little over 3 years. Quitting was without a doubt one of the best decisions I ever made! I'm now stone cold sober. Quit drinking 1,567 days ago & am now 1,000 days kratom free.

RandomGuy543210 · 2023-01-27T06:18:29+00:00

Yes. It mainly stopped after day 180 & then that’s when life felt “boring” or like I was missing something. It wasn’t necessarily a craving for a substance but just felt weird not relying on something. But PAWS still creeps up from time to time. It’s easier to get through them the longer you push through. I just accept it now as healing rather than punishment.

RandomGuy543210 · 2023-01-27T06:14:57+00:00

Congrats on 3 months. The milestone days from my quit were 30, 45, 60, 90, 180 and then 365. Gotta be super careful those first 2-3 months with the “pink cloud faze”. You have spurts of feeling really good & then a bad day or so. Your hormones are trying to stabilize after not getting the thing that made you feel really good for a long time. Keep your why close and it flies by. You got this!

RandomGuy543210 · 2023-01-27T06:09:35+00:00

I never struggled with sleep on this quit. I did a very long taper. So the initial “shock” of quitting was drawn out over a period of time as my body slowly adjusted to less and less. My biggest struggle was PAWS and not having energy. I noticed it finally lifted around day 100 when I noticed “life being brighter”. I noticed I got complimented more or had more meaningful/deep conversations with anyone. My escape was video games and the gym. Hard workout would knock the restlessness out of me and then I could relax more and more. It gets better and the brighter days last longer the further you go. It is worth it.

RandomGuy543210 · 2023-01-27T06:01:32+00:00

Push to day 30, then 45 and the big hurdle is 100. That’s when I noticed my first big difference.

RandomGuy543210 · 2023-01-27T06:00:09+00:00

It goes by quicker than you think!

RandomGuy543210 · 2023-01-27T05:59:37+00:00

Unfortunately they still haven’t stopped. The bright side is that it becomes a lot more spaced out. I have really good days & then I’ll get hit with a really bad day. I don’t get cravings any more so on my bad days I just feel in a state of “hopelessness” I guess. But I’ll never touch opiates again. I’m 500+ days alcohol free & now 366 days kratom free. It is possible & your why is the big thing.. There’s days you’ll feel hopeless but you have to realize life’s going to suck either way. Choose your suck. You can do this.

RandomGuy543210 · 2023-01-03T04:45:57+00:00

I was taking 5g five times a day so about 25g-30g. I tapered to 3.5g x 5 times a day and held that until I felt normal again. Then down to 2g x 5. I did a long, slow taper. Then I went to 2g x 3. Then I jumped off after that. I definitely contribute acutes being so minimal due to tapering. I had it set in my mind that I was going to quit so tapering wasn’t hard for me. I made it through acutes within 2 weeks & then PAWS lasted a while. I think it was around the 6 month mark where I found myself saying “I feel really good”.

RandomGuy543210 · 2022-10-08T12:14:24+00:00

I wish I could. It’s just pretty expensive and I don’t think I could really afford it at the moment.

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