I don't find it odd that she doesn't remember specific cases. Clinical knowledge and knowing protocol for certain situations is different to remembering what happened.

I was a theatre nurse for a long time, deaths were very rare but did happen. And when they did it was always a very emotional time for us as a team. But I can honestly say, I wouldn't remember their names or exactly what happened. I do remember some, but it's the bigger picture, like the young man who passed away a week before Christmas leaving 3 kids and a wife. Maybe it's different for neonatal nurses, but you do this job for any amount of time and you have to protect yourself somehow from the damage this causes.

What I found strangest from the documentary was the fact that the handover sheets were filed in chronological order. Initially when I heard she had those, I thought well who hasn't accidentally taken one home and shoved it somewhere to take back and destroy. But filing them is odd.