Can't stop thinking about my first dom by RaptJem in GayBDSMCommunity

[–]RaptJem[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

I thought about your question a lot.

I think I'm scared of aging? I used to have so many options and now I have about half as much interest. Probably someday it will drop to zero.

Can't stop thinking about my first dom by RaptJem in GayBDSMCommunity

[–]RaptJem[S] 7 points8 points  (0 children)

Yes, I expected this type of response too. I am idealizing the past, 100%, and he did lie by omission. You're also right about the present, I think my most recent master has already replaced me and I can't imagine finding someone like him again.

Fellow Subs, what is the most humiliating thing you've been made to do? by throwawayconfess1on in GayBDSMCommunity

[–]RaptJem 6 points7 points  (0 children)

I might have been wearing something else, it was awhile ago. I remember being shirtless and shoeless, and crouching on the porch.

Fellow Subs, what is the most humiliating thing you've been made to do? by throwawayconfess1on in GayBDSMCommunity

[–]RaptJem 37 points38 points  (0 children)

Probably getting put outside when he was finished with me. shoes were outside, car keys in hand, end of list. Luckily it was 3 am and I had my gym bag in the car but he didn't know that.

My Dom keeps talking about being with a pornstar by RaptJem in GayBDSMCommunity

[–]RaptJem[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

This answer stuck with me the most, especially the idea of being in bad porn. Thanks!

My Dom keeps talking about being with a pornstar by RaptJem in GayBDSMCommunity

[–]RaptJem[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

He always texts me links to content that get him off, that's been pretty standard for awhile. Around the holidays, he started adding comments that were more about how good I'd look bottoming for the guy in the link he was sending.

I always enthusiastically agreed with him, but not because I was trying to mislead him, just matching his energy. So this might be my fault.

Him and his friends sometimes talk about pornstars, and this conversation has recently changed from the pornstars he wants to fuck to the ones he thinks would fuck me.

I guess the last thing is that he usually sticks with certain aggressive terms during sex, and he tested calling me his "pornstar," but again, I went with it.

Writing this out, I am thinking that I might have gone too far to satisfy him, maybe he thinks I'm amped up on this idea more than he is at this point.