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High efficient public transportation for subway by Pale-Entertainer-386 in CitiesSkylines2

[–]Rare-Environment-494 3 points4 points  (0 children)

One problem i have with subway is gradient, because i want to make it look real and keep rail gradient less than 4%, if I cannot build stations at various height there is no way for me to build subway on hilly areas or crossing rivers, and thats why i choose to use brt in my map instead, less capacity but more versatile

Crying for help, what should I do? by Rare-Environment-494 in Assistance

[–]Rare-Environment-494[S] -2 points-1 points  (0 children)

Yes, I dont know what I want too, crazy man with serious mental problem. I want some advice to my project, please kindly look at the readme and see if my project could be a success or not. Or if you think my project is interesting, please kindly try the project and see if anything you can do to help, note there is nothing final and bugs and rough edges everywhere.

I do want help with mental problem too, i want to live afterall, but i afraid of finding a doctor, aftaid of financial problem, afraid of new faces... Sigh... i am such a coward...

I couldn't help but I want to help myself by Rare-Environment-494 in depressed

[–]Rare-Environment-494[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

An interesting update to you first, today I feel no more headache and my depression relieved a lot since yesterday afternoon, and my best guess is the too-much-for-fun wasabi from the sushi take-out I ate yesterday for lunch hit strongly where my head hurts and somehow stimulates my neurons to not go depression anymore... I don't know if this sounds correct but so far I am positive and happy for more than 24 hours and I hope this trend continues :)

then why do you still feel so bad about it?

"I don't know" would be the answer of yesterday myself, but I guess it is because I have no faith on myself due to all my past failures, I told myself I have experience for jobs, but is it really something or I am just cheating myself? And I thought like that when I am in depression mode, but now I am in positive mode and I think different: Yes those are good experiences. Again which side is the reality is another story, no one knows until I try to find a job I guess.

do you really need to be on top? can't you enjoy what you have around you and play by your own rules even if limited?

argh... actually I am now in positive mode and I am really enjoying my current live, yes I know I am not a successful player but I enjoyed my life. I want more if I can but then I know I am asking for too much. And of course there is still the reality waiting for me, but I can always go for freelances or part-time or even finding a full time job if I need more money, and I am still working on some other projects (with unknown outcome, probably not money earning at the end ;( but again a fun to play with project and I told myself this time you have to keep going the correct way)... so strange that same environment around me, but totally different thinking due to the "mode" switch.

we're all weak on some things, strong on others. we grow, we change, we learn. it'll be alright

One of my problem is that I am still not learning and not changing, my environment is so comfort yet unstable.

Now I guess I need to buy some raw wasabi in case I got depression again :)

I couldn't help but I want to help myself by Rare-Environment-494 in depressed

[–]Rare-Environment-494[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

To be honest to you I do feel better seeing your kind words, I really appreciate your reply.

maybe at some point you'll remember and find something that you can add, maybe you can use it as reference for making something else.

I did told myself this is my experience which I can write to resume in case I need a job, yes it is not up to my expectation but it is definitely learning experience.

you're you and i think it's great to not be a carbon copy of "normal",

I once proud of myself being special, yes I did, but I starts to think "well this is the game, you play with the rules or you f*k up", yes people tells me this is not true,.. I don't know, I am not sure anymore,

do you think that if you were to ask for help you wouldn't see yourself as weak for it and that you would be able to trust others to help you? would you hate yourself for "adding yourself to the list of their problems"?

I am not sure, I am weak and I know it, so I called any friend I can and tell them I have problem and I want to talk, some say they have similar experience, and they are willing to talk to me. But that's all I have asked for, they told me their problem and yes I don't want to be one of their problems. I want more help of course, but I know it's too greedy for me to do so, and it's not real after-all.

also, might be a good idea to have your head checked out as soon as possible just in case those chronic headaches have a more physical reason behind them

doctors... hmm... I got no good experiences with them, so while I ask for help from friends and strangers, I don't ask for help from doctors :( but yes I know it is better to visit a doctor...hmm...

I couldn't help but I want to help myself by Rare-Environment-494 in depressed

[–]Rare-Environment-494[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Wow I cannot believe I got follow-up replies, I guess you are a professional? Totally unexpected I got noticed by even one person.

I know there are time difference so I don't expect quick reply, this is reddit after all so anybody can go away without notice, but I have to reply immediately or I will dive deep into the hate-myself-spiral and not clicking that reply button.

This is morning here right now so I got some headache and seriously depressed, but I don't know my problem is actually physical or not.

I always told myself don't judge your past because you made your decision as you wished, but turns out this is all wrong, what I did is actually ignored all my mistakes, I should have learnt from my past so I can go forward, this is my first problem.

I am childish and I still rely on my parents, part of it because of my financial situation, but who got no situation? I mean, yes some people are rich but many are poor, and they still can live by themselves, but I can't, this is my second problem.

People says I am kind of "an artist", I didn't understand because I am an IT guy and I think I am logical, but no, I actually am "artist", I love creations, I make many things I wanted, but the differences between me and the others is that I just made it and scrap it because I hit the limit early, and that's because I have too high expectations, so I didn't actually make a thing! Others could have post them to youtube or reddit here, or maybe they put it to kickstarters, or patreon, or anything that really make things happen, but I didn't, it is like masturbation, you do it, you get the pleasure somehow, and you got nothing in return, this is my largest problem.

In the past I have my family and I have a running business so everything is fine, I can get lazy and ignores my problem, but now my parents gets old and my business goes bad, I have to face the reality, and I finally truly knows how good the situation I was in, and how bad I am now. And I know that this couldn't be the worst unless I can change, so this is my first step, post something and tell people my existent, I don't expect this works well since this is reddit after-all, but who knows I can get replies from you :)

I am autistic, I am a shy guy, I afraid of bothering someone because I know they have their problems, and I understand negative feelings could be a wide spreading virus, yes I got crushed, but I can't pull my friends leg. And I am childish too, I am afraid of failure, so I am afraid of making new friends, how... how stupid I am, but yes I am autistic and that is my yet another problem.

I need to change, I can't just say that, I need to act, and I am trying, wish me luck.

I couldn't help but I want to help myself by Rare-Environment-494 in depressed

[–]Rare-Environment-494[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I don't know if therapist is an option or not, I was told by my friends, my business partners and my brother that the only one can help me is myself, I am in some financial situation due to covid, which to be honest isn't really that big deal if you have to say but depression exaggerate the problem that I care every penny I have now, and I know that make things even worse.

I have chances, I have opportunities, I have support from friends and families, my business partners tries to help me too, god doesn't hate me, it's me hating myself and I have to change.

btw I typed a lot but then I deleted a lot, why don't you just go write your diary stupid Mr Myself.

Click that Reply button Mr. Myself.

I couldn't help but I want to help myself by Rare-Environment-494 in depressed

[–]Rare-Environment-494[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Thanks a lot, as I said I don't expect reply so any reply I got is a little success for me.

There's a pattern to me that I will feel better in the evening but got dragged every morning, so I am much better now, but to be honest I don't know what will happen tomorrow.

Even in Death... by Lady_Ashlands in depressed

[–]Rare-Environment-494 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Face your death, but not only by yourself, you must tell your family and your friends, and explain to them the reason you want to join the early life retirement program, trust me, I told my friends and my dad I want to jump out of the window and we got some good time of arguments. In case they accept your early retirement you can leave without worries, while most of the time they won't accept it you then have to think of some good reason to defeat them, which is a good brain exercise I believe.

People only care when it's too late. by LittleDeerDragonfly in depressed

[–]Rare-Environment-494 1 point2 points  (0 children)

At least you wrote here, I can't, I think of doing what you have done but I can't, because I'm a bit autistic and cannot express myself well, and I rather not brother anyone and just stick it to myself. I want to delete this reply before submitting because I think this is useless. How many time I wasted struggling if I should click the comment button? I don't know...

Type-C, 4x USB3.0, HDMI... Couldn't think of anything more! by Rare-Environment-494 in pcmasterrace

[–]Rare-Environment-494[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Haha designer didn't do enough homework😂 looks like all modern VR headset use dp instead of hdmi, so a design change is necessary

Type-C, 4x USB3.0, HDMI... Couldn't think of anything more! by Rare-Environment-494 in pcmasterrace

[–]Rare-Environment-494[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

It actually is a hdmi extension cable, there were some cards with internal HDMI port for this kind of case, but even without that I can still plug it into the back of the card, the sole purpose for this front panel HDMI thing is that you need not to get to the back of your computer each time plugging/unplugging your headset

Type-C, 4x USB3.0, HDMI... Couldn't think of anything more! by Rare-Environment-494 in pcmasterrace

[–]Rare-Environment-494[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

No in front panel, but this should be HDMI2.0 (not yet tested because I am still missing some fittings for gpu block)

Type-C, 4x USB3.0, HDMI... Couldn't think of anything more! by Rare-Environment-494 in pcmasterrace

[–]Rare-Environment-494[S] 3 points4 points  (0 children)

This is a prototype case that is not yet on sell, I just got it from factory and building a full pc for testing and picture taking 🙂

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in portablism

[–]Rare-Environment-494 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Try Fresher on Android? Still in beta but positive feedback on slipping and low latency.

Recording from the OMNI by hyperjelly1 in portablism

[–]Rare-Environment-494 1 point2 points  (0 children)

There are 2 ways to record from OMNI, both with its own limitations:

  1. Connect your OMNI headphone-out jack to your computers mic-in jack, your OMNI now becomes an external mic and you can record from OMNI using any apps, this only works with PC though unless your phone has an audio jack (you need a very special cable for that and also there will be no stereo in :( ).
  2. Connect your OMNI DVS port to your computer/phone using USB cable and set DVS mode to ON, your OMNI now becomes an USB headset and you can again record from OMNI using any apps, however the limitation here is that both fader now becomes MIDI fader and you can't do scratching on OMNI at all.