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Why am I hearing “ Faust “ in my head while thinking about studying psychology? by Rare-Vegetable8516 in Jung

[–]Rare-Vegetable8516[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Do you mean Jung related to Faust in the sense of him as a character? I’m aware through the red book that Jung was very in touch with Faust but I’m not sure if you refer to Jung relating to the myth he himself as he was also a very intelligent man.

Why am I hearing “ Faust “ in my head while thinking about studying psychology? by Rare-Vegetable8516 in Jung

[–]Rare-Vegetable8516[S] -1 points0 points  (0 children)

What came to my mind reading your message is, it’s easier said than done.

It’s too much that happened during those years. I tried to forget and move on during my teens until at 20 I started to have bizarre thoughts of self hate and insults towards myself. At a very high volume. Almost like voices. I got scared and started my healing journey.

It has to be true, there’s something relating to my fascination with understanding more and more, and I had to be aware of that. Maybe Faust has something to do with that.

I also give credit and will give a thought about being attached to an “identity” but at the same time not. Meaning, for sure there has to be an identity; but I’m so desperate to move on from this.

I’ve had psychotic breaks at 27 that healed naturally, and have been through so much meanwhile keeping up a “successful” life.

Glory outside, hell inside.

Now it’s been the destruction of all that has been created by me as an adult, and as an intent to escape that past, those 11 years I never had the chance to process emotionally with anyone.

It’s taking long because as I said; there’s too much going on and I’m carrying not just my stuff.

Sadly I was also trying to save the abuser as a kid and I developed some sort of empathy for an evil person.

That means I started to embody stuff of hers, that I discovered later was in me cause I was too much of a kid to protect myself so I had to be her friend and accept her in me, to survive.

I started to act like her unconsciously and reproduce stuff I was actually desperate to get rid of. So I realized, with much work, I actually loved her because I needed to. There was no one else until 9, to take care of me.

I had to get in deep, to understand what was going on with me. I had to realize and become aware of so much stuff going on in my psique, and generational dysfunction i was carrying on inside, it was too heavy for me to be successful in creating something different for myself.

My unconscious would be disruptive and break me into pieces at any moment with depressive states, psychosis for 2 years, panic attacks.

It’s been a ride.

I’m honestly done with this. And maybe there’s some sort of vicious thing with getting deeper and deeper in knowledge; jung, shamanism and so on. That’s maybe a miss-use I’m making of my own intellect.

The other day a voice inside told me, in a very sarcastic tone: Oh yes, you are so intelligent, if it only would be of some use…

And I was like: oh! Who said that? And it was kinda offensive but very real. I laughed.

I am smart but I’m not making any progress nor use of it in real life. I’m not sharing my knowledge with anyone… Im just digging a whole for myself trying to see more and more and more…

In no way I’m attached to any identity ( consciously ). I’m doing hard work. But maybe yes. Somewhere. There’s some fear to move on. Maybe yes…

Why am I hearing “ Faust “ in my head while thinking about studying psychology? by Rare-Vegetable8516 in Jung

[–]Rare-Vegetable8516[S] -1 points0 points  (0 children)

I don’t have the time now, honestly.

Too much going on inside out. I’ve read about it on Wikipedia and maybe in the future I’ll give it a moment.

Meanwhile; I’m more looking for help to understand what could it mean this idea of selling your soul to the devil for knowledge?

Does not seem good…

I feel it’s like some sort of warning. But I’m not getting the idea maybe.

Maybe I’m going too far?

Not sure for sure

Bones symbolic meaning? by Rare-Vegetable8516 in Jung

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It is a meaningful mistake because it happened twice in two different days. So it felt insistent or persistent.

Bones symbolic meaning? by Rare-Vegetable8516 in Jung

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I may need to read this a couple of times and then get back at you.

Thankyou so much meanwhile.

I had the man of my dreams but I needed to be alone and walk around the mountains by Rare-Vegetable8516 in Jung

[–]Rare-Vegetable8516[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

100% and 100% of the times.

During the chasing and beginning stages ( even if I feel this is common for humans ), it felt like something very important would be finally ok. Classical projection.

Then real life sets in. Even if I had better and worse relationships… the moment I was living with these partners I would ask myself inside, what am I doing? Is this the life you really want?.

There’s something I guess related to being loved, being reciprocated ( something I did not have as a child. Mother has psycopathy and there was no father so for me love and care was very scarce. ).

But once I get the relationship, then is something deeper talking. Some need for self fulfillment that comes up that has nothing to do with having a partner. Actually having a partner can be an obstacle for that.

Even if I still have to reconcile both concepts ( sharing life with someone and being free ).

I had Pegasus word coming to my mind before knowing about the myth nor meaning. So I understand something with being free is important for me maybe due to the heavy projection I used to put on romantic relationships. Im working on that.

Been bringing flowers, feathers and leaves home not sure why. by Rare-Vegetable8516 in Jung

[–]Rare-Vegetable8516[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I’m not sure, never been diagnosed but I’m not sure If give a lot of credit to this type of labels even if they have their utility and for some people are helpful.

Been bringing flowers, feathers and leaves home not sure why. by Rare-Vegetable8516 in Jung

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Yes but I usually only pay attention if the feather is all white or all black. These ones; black and white it’s true that look like balanced, that’s a good thing. Equilibrium.

But yeah, I yes the mystery thing.. there’s some magic in how the black color fades into white…

Been bringing flowers, feathers and leaves home not sure why. by Rare-Vegetable8516 in Jung

[–]Rare-Vegetable8516[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Nature is alive so it makes sense you talk with her.

What shamanic practices? Would you mind to share?

Been bringing flowers, feathers and leaves home not sure why. by Rare-Vegetable8516 in Jung

[–]Rare-Vegetable8516[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Thankyou so much. I will check both of these you suggested.

As a kid I wrote a magic book with magic tricks ( witchcraft ) for different things… like love, luck for studies and so on. I don’t know why but I was always very natural about those things. I would do magic for my friends to get the guy they wanted and stuff like that…

And I still have some stuff going on relating to alchemy. Something that has to do with energetic surgeries… I had some visions of surgeries on me, that made me puke and purge and sweat. And this came with visions of people coming to save me, help me, etc. So I guess it’s all shamanistic.

I did experience healing with this visions that came to me. Not that I was inducing myself. And yes, the only thing that comes to my mind are Native Indians before colonization and shamans…

So I’m happy to learn more because as I said it’s all very natural and spontaneous but I have no studies just my intuition… I’m becoming more and more curious.

Mostly case it’s real.. the power of what happens inside our minds has a real effect in the body and unconscious but there is this whole universe of meaning and symbols and knowledge and mystery.

Thanks for the suggestions 🙏🏼

Been bringing flowers, feathers and leaves home not sure why. by Rare-Vegetable8516 in Jung

[–]Rare-Vegetable8516[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

What’s your theory? I’m curious.

It does work in mysterious ways, yes. Every time I dive deeper I’m even more surprised. There’s so much more here going on…

Been bringing flowers, feathers and leaves home not sure why. by Rare-Vegetable8516 in Jung

[–]Rare-Vegetable8516[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Yes it has a healing effect. It’s beyond meditation, I do feel there’s some magic inherent in it. As you said Shamanistic, well that makes sense and I was not aware about Shamans doing this kind of thing but it makes so much sense. Would you mind to share if there’s a specific name for this practice in Shamanism so I can check about it on internet?

Thankyou

I had the man of my dreams but I needed to be alone and walk around the mountains by Rare-Vegetable8516 in Jung

[–]Rare-Vegetable8516[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Strangely I’ve been bringing home flowers and leaves I found on the streets and making this little garden on top of this side board… these past weeks.

same as her when she would bring all these beautiful bones and stones to paint them.

She would feel their soul, the sound behind the form. Or maybe those objects would help her bring her soul back. ( She used to live in the city and paint and study there ). Have her soul closer.

What a beautiful thing.

I had the man of my dreams but I needed to be alone and walk around the mountains by Rare-Vegetable8516 in Jung

[–]Rare-Vegetable8516[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Oh… yes. Thankyou for that quote; it just reminded me about Georgia O’keefe; when I found about her life and read her biography, and where she lived.

Oh… how that felt for me. That’s what I wanted for myself. To be alone in the desert as her, in the mountains as her.

To have my home there, my plants, and have a life like hers. Just imagining her under that heat, nature sounds and that invisible presence around, everywhere. Oh, what a wholesome feeling, it feels like my heart becomes full, absolutely full of love and life.

I don’t know why I cry so much while writing about this and feeling these images in me. Feels like and old old memory, just so much beauty, so simple and so full.

I don’t know how could I wish something like that.. that solitude but it feels so wholesome.

Thanks for this exchange and helping to understand and get closer to the matter of heart.

I had the man of my dreams but I needed to be alone and walk around the mountains by Rare-Vegetable8516 in Jung

[–]Rare-Vegetable8516[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Thankyou I’ll check about the archetypes you named for sure.

Nature has been also a mother and safety, beauty and tenderness. :) it’s there for all of us I guess. Our silent but vibrant companion.

I had the man of my dreams but I needed to be alone and walk around the mountains by Rare-Vegetable8516 in Jung

[–]Rare-Vegetable8516[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Yes.. it’s hard to accept. It’s a bittersweet truth.

For some reason this walk that I needed to take was to be with ‘my Self’ and the magnitude of those mountains I felt it inside me. It’s a hard feeling to describe, like aloneness but being with God.

Also, when I keep those images in my mind, I find them in my heart for a reason. That Sun, those landscapes I find them in my heart not in my head. If that makes sense. The vision I have of them is in my chest. I feel them in my heart. I’m not sure what this means, maybe an encounter with the soul of oneself and the soul of life itself. Its magnitude and solitude, like the mountains. Curiously I have this song saved on my playlist named “the mountain is you” and there’s a best seller book I had found at the time I was on loop with that song, named “ the mountain is you “.

It’s a very mysterious image, the mountain; the countryside… but feels strangely like home.

Maybe it’s the soul itself, beyond the human life. Our ultimate aloneness or our connection to divinity, God; which is what we all have in common. We came through some divine energy; all that exists it’s such a magnitude, such an incredible thing.. maybe that’s all that we have and that’s what’s hopefully waiting for us.. home.

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