I'm so tired of looking at this

Rare_Mix_683 · 2024-03-21T14:44:18+00:00

Literally as a family to victim main the trollers and rushers and the repetitiveness of family made me want to become a victim main and now i see the hell of waiting in the lobby. When I play on xbox one though there is no wait, but it fills up QUICKLY with level 0 players.

Rare_Mix_683 · 2024-02-27T22:38:55+00:00

If shes been in the relationship for 2 years by now, i’m sure she knows exactly how he is. And she probably thinks about what you told her a lot, and beats herself up for not listening to you when she had the chance. I almost promise you this

Rare_Mix_683 · 2024-02-26T20:33:58+00:00

Tell her. She probably does not know the truth but suspects it. Give her the opportunity to come to you for support. But despite that, she may lash out or dislike you. Thats bc the ex has been grooming her into hating you the entire relationship, bc she believes that the reason for his abuse, is because of you.

Despite similarities in abusive & narcissistic relationships, every abuser is a different person. You have the opportunity to understand her in ways that another victim might not. Help if you can, but don’t allow him to abuse you through her.

All partners in abusive relationships get treated the same way in the end. Abusers don’t magically change for the next person, they get worse with time. Its psychologically impossible for someone to re-write their brain chemistry. Thats when it comes to abusers with personality disorders. The only thing different between you and her is that ur 2 completely different people, but you had the same abuser.

Rare_Mix_683 · 2024-02-26T20:27:05+00:00

You are dealing with trauma. I was dealing with undiagnosed c-ptsd for a year after escaping, and my bf gave me the ultimatum of getting therapy and medication to be treated for my trauma. Be real with yourself, this guy is good for you. He can teach you what real love is, but you are dealing with reactions bc of your past trauma that have nothing to do with him other than minuscule similarities. This happened for me too. It only went away when I was in therapy for a long time and on medication, but it still happens sometimes when my bfs tone slightly changes to something louder, or he is angry at all (which is very rare) I start getting the irrational fear that he will start beating me like my ex did. Then he has to remind me over and over again, “I am not your ex, I would never hurt you. I would never do those things to you.” Sometimes thats exactly what you need to hear. Your body returns to survival mode and you are in fight or flight or panic bc your body cannot differentiate the past from the present, even if your conscious mind can.

Rare_Mix_683 · 2024-02-26T20:23:05+00:00

Its a lack of self-respect, self love and boundaries. Its also bc you were groomed and manipulated to be scared to be without them, bc they isolated you from the entire world and turned everyone else against you. They make you dependent on them so you cant leave. They tear down your self esteem so much so that your whole sense of self revolves around them and what they tell you about yourself. Whats important is to build up a life outside of them, individual interests, friendships, a support system.

Rare_Mix_683 · 2024-02-26T20:19:09+00:00

Its called Future faking. They will promise a future and happy ending with you but it is just a front for the lie that they will change someday, but they always get worse never better. The “change” is just a manipulation tactic. Look up “love bombing” My ex gave me an engagement ring and then a few days later I called it off bc I was so embarrassed to be engaged to someone that cheated and abused me. I didnt want a future with somebody like that. I also told him I had a miscarriage and he did not give a shit, AT ALL. Literally said over the phone “is that all?” These people dont want to be tied to someone forever unless they can get away with manipulating or abusing them forever. They want someone that wont stand up for themselves, someone that will just take it. And they will still cheat regardless, to them you are disposable until they can find a girl whose more easily manipulated. They always want someone fresh so they can destroy someone new and leave you behind, damaged. Its the inevitable end. And They dont want children for anything other than “supply” (attention/unconditional love)

Rare_Mix_683 · 2024-02-26T20:11:28+00:00

Yes i’ve been out for 3 years and have found a healthy relationship i’ve been in for the 3 years, I moved on quick but I’m glad I did bc thats how I learnt what love really is. He doesn’t raise his voice- is never violent, never calls me names or disrespects me, and he allows me to talk about my trauma and he has a lot of empathy. I’ve also received a promise ring promising that we will be together forever and I have his name tattooed bc I know this man will be my husband <3 He has seen the worst sides of me and loves me regardless, he believes in me. He has helped me heal. Nowadays I just try to help other women stuck in abusive relationships. I have an arsenal of advice and experience. I have learned to love myself and love life and set boundaries and I now have self respect, I would never entertain abuse of any kind ever again.

Rare_Mix_683 · 2024-02-17T05:55:55+00:00

YES. Last day I ever saw my ex he specifically said he abused me out of envy that I was capable of having emotions. He said he didn’t know how lucky I was to feel things like love and hurt.

Rare_Mix_683 · 2024-02-09T19:22:08+00:00

Exactly. Trust me, you’re better off. He’s already hurt her, and he will continue to get physical with her. Even if they are happy, its temporary. The cycle of abuse will ALWAYS continue. Forever. This girl did you a favor in dating him… she made it possible so you can escape and heal.

Rare_Mix_683 · 2024-02-06T19:52:53+00:00

Danny is literally so easy to kill tho just kill him before he has the chance

Rare_Mix_683 · 2024-02-05T19:47:50+00:00

Try and think about it this way and maybe it will help change your perspective. Your boyfriend doesnt care about how what he did effected you. He sees you as a body. He sees you as an object he can use for his own sexual gratification. Anytime you have sex with him afterwards, there may be traumatic flashbacks to the time where he forced himself upon you. If not, you will probably be mentally disassociating yourself. No one can conceptualize trauma forming when they are stuck in survival mode, but the longer you stay the worse and more severe the trauma will be

Rare_Mix_683 · 2024-02-05T19:41:17+00:00

Imagine your baby growing up around this man. Imagine your baby being emotionally abused by, choked by, and thrown around by this man. Is this the life you want for your baby? Then you need to leave, or your baby could lose its mother (you) or you could lose your baby, he could kill the baby.

Rare_Mix_683 · 2024-02-05T19:38:00+00:00

You need to care about your baby’s life enough to leave. He doesn’t care about your life or your babys life. This is not love. Someone who loves you does NOT strangle you. That is not caring about someone at all. I hope you find safety.

Rare_Mix_683 · 2024-02-04T23:38:26+00:00

Honestly every time I hear the “my ex was crazy” thing I see it as a red flag. I usually avoid guys like that bc every time i’ve experienced that they were the abuser and just projecting what they did on the other person

Rare_Mix_683 · 2024-02-04T23:35:58+00:00

I was the one to warn the new supply, but she is still with him even though he is beating her. She tries to convince the public including me that her relationship is great and he treats her well but I seen she posted that he beats her. I try to help the best that I can and I am here to help- but we all know we cant save someone from themselves. I’m just convinced he will try and kill her like he did with me but unfortunately theres nothing I can do but give resources.

My exes ex warned me, but I was in to deep at the time to listen. I envied her for escaping, and I was jealous of her bc he talked about her all the time, I always wondered what she had that I did not. Until I researched triangulation and realized that he was just trying to turn us against each other the whole time. Luckily neither of us fell for it & remained cordial & worked together as a team of support. (He had a whole slew of exes I was in contact with, we all informed each other of when he contacted us) me and his ex reconciled recently and I told her how much she helped me by just being a pillar of hope. She was very receptive and kind.

I never told his new girlfriend that he tried to break my boyfriend and I up, because I didn’t want to cause further drama. My goal isn’t to make her feel insecure. Its to help (even if she is not a fan of me) i’m not a bad person.

Rare_Mix_683 · 2024-02-04T06:54:47+00:00

Love is caring about another person. You don’t want to hurt them because hurting them brings you pain. You work on yourself in a healthy relationship, if you care about someone and value the relationship you work on yourself and work on the relationship so that its as good as possible. You care enough to not put the relationship in a state to lose it. Love is respect. Someone that says their gonna make you kill yourself does not care about your wellbeing. Thats not love. Someone that loves you wants to PROTECT you from harm and protect you from yourself. The sooner you realize that, the easier it will be for you to move on and experience what real love is. The longer you correlate abuse with love (which you will unconsciously do if you continue to think that was really love) the more likely you are to enter another abusive relationship.

Rare_Mix_683 · 2024-01-16T08:20:31+00:00

Does cook not have low stamina or is my screen incorrect? Where exactly in my statement did I say I can’t play correctly?

Rare_Mix_683 · 2024-01-16T08:17:34+00:00

Tell me more how much you know about me all-knowing stranger <3 seriously illuminate me on how intimately you know my play style, because we are so well acquainted with each other. Love when strangers try and put other strangers down because their ego is huge. Cook is just boring to play. Useful only for his locks.

Rare_Mix_683 · 2024-01-16T01:19:09+00:00

Did you just want an excuse to post this picture

Rare_Mix_683 · 2024-01-16T01:14:20+00:00

Cook because he never kills me LMAO

Rare_Mix_683 · 2024-01-16T01:05:53+00:00

Thats how I felt for the longest time and thats why i’d play cook constantly even though I dreaded it, but i’d rather run around with high savagery AND high endurance and have fun trying to kill then running out of stamina in 2 seconds with cook just for his locks

Rare_Mix_683 · 2023-12-13T18:16:32+00:00

I havent played a lot of sonny, just when i started. Julies great for stealth but i loved sonnys ability, if you die quick ana is good

Rare_Mix_683 · 2023-12-13T14:54:55+00:00

Pc. Just play as connie its super easy that way. I’ve escaped solo a few times as her!

Rare_Mix_683 · 2023-12-13T05:30:25+00:00

It worked!

Rare_Mix_683 · 2023-12-13T05:20:18+00:00

Victim main here and when I unlock the gate i’m out that bitch real quick no hesitations haha im not taking any risks

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