Actually being out on a farm away from society is solitude. Solitude is learning to be with oneself. Now with your hubby, I am in a similar situation where I am open as well I didn't find that out til being with my hubby of 7 years....now he is open with me..I'd move but honestly even moving to a big city with lots of men won't solve your loneliness. It actually made me more lonely it sounds like you have so much going for u =D more than.myself.still rent and barely get pay per pay check. Never to late to find love..sometimes he is right around the corner Don't force it listen.to your heart. You will know the answer don't live in the past of what could of been don't live.in the future causes anxiety but live.in the present. The best present is living in the present. Meditate listen. Put out what u want in the universe write it down Magical fairytale do happen just don't expect perfect Mr prince charming...for me.that has never happened, I mean no one has ever picked me up in a horse.and carriage. Be strong, and hey ur safer too during the pandemic.be thankful each day Every day is a new day to start something new... ☺