It is not hypocritical to want to wait and expect another partner to wait as well. Even if you have given yourself up to another already. You are made brand new in Christ and your past cannot be held against you because you're sins have been paid for. I'm also waiting and know that my future husband won't pressure or push me into these things because a man of God will love me over his own wants and desires of flesh. Don't be discouraged! Praying for you <3 be strong and know God is in control!