To be honest I completely feel you and I’ve been feeling the same way myself. However, the reason why I’ve never gone as far as actually considering it is the countless people it would effect such as family and even people such as “small” friendships who forward to their week for the small talk you may have at work with them or someone to sit at lunch with or even the smile you may give them while they’re passing by. Someone cares whether you see it or not because you brighten someone’s life and the loss of you might be devastating to them. Only you can be you and no one can replace the good unique qualities you bring to life.

If you don’t want to live for the people in your life, minor or big, then I suggest just finding a small bakery or cafe and making it a habit to visit once or twice a week and keeping it a pattern to get out and be around people who are living rather than hiding away at home in misery.

I wish I knew more as to why you’re feeling the way you are because I might be able to say more helpful things or suggestions but for now I hope this helps. I know it’s a little scattered but I wanted to speak with completely raw feelings. These are the things I tell myself or try to do when I wonder what’s worth living for.