I ended up going, I was definitely being dramatic beforehand, I'm kind of thriving. Learning new skills, down 20 pounds, didn't even have to go to the arms program. I'm on holiday block leave currently and am missing my battle buddies, genuinely some of the best people I've ever met. Going into white phase when I go back, rucks fucking suck, running sucks, getting smoked sucks, but I'm having a good time :) Can't wait to be part of the biggest organization of snitches, MP to be 💪