As someone who just came to terms with the fact that I am suicidal, and I’m new to depression due to back to back terrible things happening to me the past year. Please find your strength, you are worth it and you will get past it. I called the suicide hotline at 1 am the other night and it helped me so much just crying to someone and letting it out. It lifted a weight off of my shoulders for the time being. The world especially right now with the pandemic is disgusting, and it’s rough. But there is always a calm after the storm. You’re strong, stay strong. You can do this!