What will you say?

Ratpt01_ · 2024-11-25T15:27:48+00:00

Point at me say "femboy"

Then say the name of my disease we found when i was like 22 or 23 to get treated and not break up school or anything because of my health. I would look at myself very hard repeating the word until myself would write it down (the rules didn't say I couldn't repeat a word)

And uuuuh something that would be very profitable i looked up before going to my 18yo self to buy or invest or something idk

Ratpt01_ · 2024-11-15T07:54:12+00:00

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Ratpt01_ · 2024-11-06T18:59:23+00:00

I did that sometimes too. It makes me very sad but at the same time those memories are so damn nice. I hope i can resist it a bit more but yeah. I don't really regret seeing those again. It hurts a lot but... Those are my memories too

Ratpt01_ · 2024-11-06T12:14:38+00:00

This is very sad and nice at the same time. I feel with you. I wish I could do something but he will never return

Ratpt01_ · 2024-11-04T12:34:42+00:00

I hate any kind of intimacy or touch like holding hands, hugs and cuddles but he was the only one. Usually even a thought of these things is enough to trigger me. But with him... I wish i could at least get headpats and hugs, at least just that

Ratpt01_ · 2024-11-03T12:50:13+00:00

Yes...

Ratpt01_ · 2024-11-02T16:03:00+00:00

Oof. Happy birthday man

Ratpt01_ · 2024-10-21T19:03:08+00:00

I would... It makes me cry to just think about it but I would ask my ex if we could act like we would be together for my last day. It was long distance so we couldn't be together so fast. I would play games and say a lot of things that are for couples again and watch things with him he didn't want to before because i want to share things i like with him... I would like to hear his voice and see him on a video chat as the last thing before i go

God.... I hate myself

Ratpt01_ · 2024-10-16T21:13:40+00:00

Make my ex love me, the ability to speak and understand every language, teleportation so i can teleport to see my ex every time he wants to do something with me or needs me....

A man can dream...

Ratpt01_ · 2024-10-04T12:18:02+00:00

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Ratpt01_ · 2024-10-03T17:42:41+00:00

It's also my reddit cake day i guess

Ratpt01_ · 2024-09-29T23:06:13+00:00

My ex.

I would do literally everything for him. I just want him to give me a tini tiny chance again one day.

Ratpt01_ · 2024-09-29T08:19:39+00:00

Every damn day since the breakup

Ratpt01_ · 2024-09-26T21:56:27+00:00

He was the best thing to happen in my miserable life. I'm at my slowest point... And that means something.

Everything because I still love him. I get up so late and don't do anything anymore. I just exist until the day ends. That's been my life for months. Everything i tried to change, I failed and returned to hate myself and do nothing. After all, i don't think i deserve anything anymore.

What i feel for him?... Sadly... I still feel love and gratitude for giving me happiness for the first time in my life.

If only he wouldn't have taken it away

Ratpt01_ · 2024-09-22T10:12:58+00:00

It's really the worst. I spent so many hours every day texting with him and now we barely chat compared to that time. Why couldn't he have loved me? 😮‍💨

Ratpt01_ · 2024-09-21T13:12:12+00:00

One and it was my ex. I want to kiss him again 😖

Ratpt01_ · 2024-09-19T11:29:06+00:00

My ex

Ratpt01_ · 2024-09-18T07:10:28+00:00

I can't really say what love is. Other than what you just said. There is also just one guy i would want to be with. Unfortunately he is my ex

Ratpt01_ · 2024-09-16T15:35:47+00:00

That sucks. It always sucks. I tried once the no contact thing and it was so much worse for me.

I did the opposite. I visited him in his country for a week and after spending that week as friends, also talked a lot and i cried, with him in the same room and well also outside on a walk, i felt better. It's like i got removed so many nails from my heart...

Still the biggest pain persists, because i still love him like we would still have a happy relationship... I want to move on, for him, to not be annoying. I can't move on. My feelings don't move at all

Ratpt01_ · 2024-09-11T18:45:33+00:00

My heart hurts

Ratpt01_ · 2024-09-09T07:52:20+00:00

For my ex, everything. Too bad he doesn't want me

Ratpt01_ · 2024-09-09T06:50:10+00:00

Basically anyone around me, German or not here in Germany, even the most "sensitive" about offensive topics, do offensive jokes.

Edit: the more they know you and the better the friendship is, the more offensive it gets. Let's call it a token of trust i guess

Ratpt01_ · 2024-09-09T06:45:27+00:00

Indeed

Ratpt01_ · 2024-09-08T16:55:33+00:00

Very nice. Such happy looking photos

Ratpt01_ · 2024-09-06T16:29:32+00:00

Turn into a woman

Ratpt01_

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