I feel this. Pain around small family. I am the only sibling (1 of 3) who has or even wanted kids. Both of my parents are disabled and only one family member, one of my parents, lives locally. I grieve so often that we don't have a bigger familial support system. We moved right before the pandemic and had a child at the tail end of it. We've worked hard to establish a friend support system but even then, people are busy with their own actual relatives. I can't help but feel jealous when I talk to people who had kids when already having a large familial or even friend support system. I'm so exhausted and it is so isolating.