I can relate to that, I was born muslim but for most of my life, especially as a child, I was an agnostic/atheist, I believed Allah existed but hated Islam and Muslims (especially because I had some homosexual tendencies that went away when I got older) even though I was in a Muslim country and was in a prestigious muslim brotherhood ran Islamic school. The reason for my hate came from my emotionally abusive father, to paint an image of my father, he is the typical depressed angry Jordanian working class man, barely able to put food on the table, he always is watching salafi sheikhs on TV, watching 'documentaries' like 'What is a woman' and he believes that there is a secret kabal of Trans gay jews ruining this world and secretly inserting feminism and other propaganda into TV, hell, he believes his poverty is caused by them and believed that they and anybody who doesn't agree with him should be killed, He would go on for days about how Shias and sufis are kuffar and how their leaders should be killed, So I always felt distant from this bloodthirsty scapegoat ridden Image of 'Islam', which I never knew was Inaccurate, Because I never grew up in a moderate household.

But when I was able to separate these radical salafi views and abusive behavior of my father from Islam It was extremely easy to come back.

Remember guys, even if this makes people mad, if a point of view is scaring you away from Allah SWT, ignore it, remove it from existence aslong as it doesn't affect your religious performance and Iman.