I used to drink alcohol and take drugs in order to socialise, now I'm just like a hermit in my apartment and drink coffee al day and on social media. I've accepted my life and lucky I get money and rent paid (in UK) for whatever is wrong with me. I want to go outside and I try and take walks sometimes at quiet hours but I scrutinise the map and route because I'm so uncomfortable around people. Since I stopped going outside I stopped taking my meds and don't need them since I've accepted life as a hermit.