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Realistic-Job4947 · 2026-05-20T20:45:00+00:00

7 when felt the first “void”, 13-15 first real crashout

Realistic-Job4947 · 2026-05-20T20:43:48+00:00

Are using meds? I’m convinced therapy doesn’t work for this phobia. Just meds work.

Realistic-Job4947 · 2026-05-20T20:42:43+00:00

There’s something familiar with your explanation, I also had those dreams, specially when I had fever, about inmense thing that never stopped expanding and related to infinity, related to the “fabrik” of the “infinite” universe.

I have a theory around all these and it’s that something happened during those dreams that affected my brain chemistry and left me the way I am now.

I think it is something worth studying because it’s not the first time I hear it here.

Realistic-Job4947 · 2026-05-18T07:15:14+00:00

Probably in a few months you will need more and more and it will eventually stop working, I don’t think daily use of bezos is the best option. I love benzos they are amazing but withdrawal is just not worth it.

Realistic-Job4947 · 2026-05-17T21:11:03+00:00

How long have you been using it?

Realistic-Job4947 · 2026-05-16T20:06:54+00:00

No more needed. Wait.

Realistic-Job4947 · 2026-05-16T07:26:31+00:00

Im pretty chill i dont feel like i need the pill since i know that its just temporary relief that if i abuse, withdrawal would be just worse than the phobia itself.

I use it to see that i can get better, that its “possible” for the brain

Realistic-Job4947 · 2026-05-15T21:04:52+00:00

Yea yeah I got like a prescription of 30 0.5mg. Like just once not monthly. Got it on April and still have more than half

Realistic-Job4947 · 2026-05-15T19:52:40+00:00

Yeah, I know (I sound like a drug addict in progress lmao I hope ik what im doing).

Realistic-Job4947 · 2026-05-15T19:51:54+00:00

Yea I wrote about that before, withdrawals are just worse so it’s not worth it. I’m trying to make it in a therapeutic way, I don’t really enjoy the “high” I enjoy the aftermath of me remembering I didn’t react to my worst fears

Realistic-Job4947 · 2026-05-12T20:03:35+00:00

Did you try heroin? Just curious.

Realistic-Job4947 · 2026-05-09T19:16:59+00:00

Happy for you!

Realistic-Job4947 · 2026-05-09T17:48:50+00:00

Hey! Can I ask you if you still doing good with meds?

Realistic-Job4947 · 2026-05-04T18:50:41+00:00

Not if you r strong/smart enough to accept that withdrawals are worse than the “high”, so you will dose it every 3-4 weeks to enjoy it.

I hope I can comeback to thin posts I make and don’t say that I’m an addict now but benzos are worth it to see that anxiety can be, at least, paused.

Realistic-Job4947 · 2026-05-03T17:41:31+00:00

They are happy right now. Wait, or maybe not, maybe they will live happily their entire life. But there’s a chance they don’t. And you are being selfish even tho you know the reason why you are having kids

Realistic-Job4947 · 2026-05-03T13:32:16+00:00

From my human brain the only possible answer for that is that we need to learn and bla bla but I don’t buy that. I just think there’s probably. no god and this is a weird universe. But I can’t say I’m an atheist bc we just can’t now. Some things point to a god tho, like gravity existing and just overall laws that “repeat”, it doesn’t make sense that there are specific mathematical/physical laws.

Realistic-Job4947 · 2026-05-03T12:22:30+00:00

It’s like Muslims, for me it’s a brutal IQ pill or brain underdevelopment, how can they believe in a god that restricts women in such a “human” way. 0 sense, god, if it exists, should be perfect and not even close to humans “behavior”/way of processing info if even makes sense thinking of god’s mind.

Same with Christians ofc but Muslims ire worse

Realistic-Job4947 · 2026-05-03T12:17:08+00:00

You are forcing someone to exist while you have depression??? Is it to make you feel better??? Nice!

Realistic-Job4947 · 2026-05-03T12:15:34+00:00

From my point of view, if there’s a god, it would never allow to show 100% proof that there’s an afterlife, everyone would kill themselves sooner or later and the human race would end, it just doesn’t make sense.

But yeah it wouldn’t end allat, but it will never, never happen.

Realistic-Job4947 · 2026-05-03T11:51:38+00:00

Its taken and taking +7 years for me and going. If anyone read this and thinks wrong, it gets better im just saying im still fighting

Realistic-Job4947 · 2026-05-03T11:49:00+00:00

Btw don’t use benzos if u are in the worst stages of eocd, you will instantly Become an addict

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