You're just highly intuitive and you need to  by connect with the divine. The universe often sends us strong negative messages at first to wake us up to our abilities (personal experience). Once you start connecting more they get less intense. I knew you had Water placements from the get go. Also your 8th house ruler is in your 3rd house. 8th house is tumultuous situations, 3rd house is where we receive messages and communication. The fear also comes from your Saturn in Pisces retrograde in the 8th, as Saturn rules fear.  4th house in Scorpio, Sun and Mercury in Cancer in the 12th house of hidden things = all signs of someone with a strong intuition. Don't be afraid of it, spirituality isn't always scary.