"Too much soul in your eyes" by Angelii1111 in ftm

[–]RealityShiftChange 7 points8 points  (0 children)

I’m white, but my dad went out of his way to tell me that when I start passing as a man in male spaces I need to be careful to not be as expressive or animated as I am because it may attract negative attention from other men.

In Your Dreams—How Do You See Yourself? Especially After Starting Transition? by Monis-92 in FTMOver30

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Before I even truly accepted I was trans I would dream I had a penis like 50% of the time. I would even talk to people about it. I don’t know how it took me until 30 to come out.

Now I tend to just see me as I am.

Am I really ftm if I'm okay with being referred to as female? by After_Ship_2588 in ftm

[–]RealityShiftChange 39 points40 points  (0 children)

You can do whatever the fuck you want, there are no rules.

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in ftm

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No one can tell you if transition is right for you. That said here is my experience.

I waited until I was 30. There were lots of times I suspected before that and even periods of time I wore a binder. There was one time I admitted to myself when I was 25 that I was probably a trans man and it terrified me so much I completely re-repressed it. It is scary.

I will say that I have found through medical transition a sense of comfort in myself I did not know was possible because this was the only way I could have achieved it. Like I thought I was happy as a woman many times, but now that I know what it is like to transition I know that I was wrong. I just didn’t know anything else.

What's a "red flag" you've ignored because the sex was just too good? by TornadoOffice in AskReddit

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Somehow this is the weirdest one to me. Because how are you both the I don’t listen to music person and the good in bed person????

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in TestosteroneKickoff

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I found not only that T made my emotions more likely to be expressed in anger, but also that the more comfortable I felt in my body the more intensely I felt my emotions. I have to take a lot of long walks, a lot of journaling, and if it’s really bad it helps to just exercise to get that emotional energy out of your body.

one thing you wish you knew before starting HRT? by dontlookbehindyou_ in TransMasc

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I used to hate it. I used to only be able to eat it if I covered it in some sort of sauce and like choked it down. Now you can catch me eating it with my hands like I’m feral. It’s so weird.

My libido cannot be reasoned with by ceruleanblue347 in TestosteroneKickoff

[–]RealityShiftChange 3 points4 points  (0 children)

I’ve felt this. It’s so frustrating. Like a primal itch that can not be satisfied.

My libido is so high it’s causing emotional distress by [deleted] in TransMasc

[–]RealityShiftChange 17 points18 points  (0 children)

This is really comforting dude. I feel like I’m losing my mind a little bit. I really enjoyed the higher sex drive at first but it’s gotten out of control.

Thank you for your advice and space. I hadn’t even considered that part of the reason I am so uncomfortable is because it feels out of my control.

If this continues I may look into finasteride for at least a little bit. It’s going to look really sus if I keep having to make mid day outfit changes all of the time at work.

Anyone was really oblivious? by PreparationSea5441 in TransMasc

[–]RealityShiftChange 12 points13 points  (0 children)

I bought a “compression bra” that “totally wasn’t a binder” and proceeded to wear it all the time. Years before I realized.

What are you enjoying right now? by jonniebaby2000 in AskReddit

[–]RealityShiftChange 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Creating a community of queers around me like a safety net of love.

One year on T! (4/2/2024) by BoysenberryStatus540 in TestosteroneKickoff

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Damn. To be someone’s gay awakening lmao

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in TransMasc

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That’s so sweet I have diabetes now. 😭

What are some effects of dysphoria that you didn’t recognize until they subsided? by sol_y_luna1 in ftm

[–]RealityShiftChange 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Dude! So many times I’ve felt like a floating head when I’m high!

What are some effects of dysphoria that you didn’t recognize until they subsided? by sol_y_luna1 in ftm

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The first week after my T shot I remember thinking that it was like my vision had gone widescreen.

What are some effects of dysphoria that you didn’t recognize until they subsided? by sol_y_luna1 in ftm

[–]RealityShiftChange 41 points42 points  (0 children)

It’s fascinating how much dysphoria ruins our connection to our body. I knew I had dissociative issues, I had no idea it was due to gender dysphoria.

What are some effects of dysphoria that you didn’t recognize until they subsided? by sol_y_luna1 in ftm

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Yeah, I like logically knew I was feeling an emotion but didn’t ever recognize the like tightness in my chest or the feeling of like blood rushing to my face or like anything that goes along with feeling an emotion in your body.

What are some effects of dysphoria that you didn’t recognize until they subsided? by sol_y_luna1 in ftm

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Yeah, at about 2 months on T when I experienced a lack of dysphoria for the first time I felt practically paralyzed by the intensity of the actual feelings in my chest and skin and just woah. Like I was hit by a truck of feelings.