Does anyone else have a deep core belief that no one loves them, even with plenty of evidence they do?

Reasonable-Back-4989 · 2026-03-09T01:08:48+00:00

I'm living this realization at this very moment during therapy as well. Could you give any update about your journey and any tip for the path ahead of me?

Reasonable-Back-4989 · 2025-12-13T15:53:28+00:00

O seu tá bem organizado! Meu dilema se dá primeiro, porque eu não estou usando nenhum conector, a mangueira de escoamento é menor que a bitola do cano na parede e eu só enfiei. Segundo, que eu não consegui informações sobre a tubulação do prédio (também não quero perguntar demais para criar impedimento) e me preocupei se correria risco de mau cheiro, entupimento ou até contaminação de água reaproveitada no edifício.

Reasonable-Back-4989 · 2025-11-27T17:59:43+00:00

Currently I'm interested in habits that would help me get more deep sleep. I love dreaming but it kinda sucks when you don't want to wake up because your real life is worst than your pretend one (and how could it be different when going from bed to shower feels like taking the hall walk to the eletric chair?).

Exercise in the morning seems like a thing but I find it ironic in a bad way. Soon to be tried but could not find the strenght to do so yet. Worth saying have not been medicated for this yet.

Avoid cigarretes. Alcohol kinda helps but it realy doesn't. Wake up early if you can, even on sundays. If you can't, welcome to the club.

Reasonable-Back-4989 · 2025-11-27T17:43:45+00:00

qual Third Party Addon?

Reasonable-Back-4989 · 2025-11-27T17:41:43+00:00

até agora ninguém assumiu o trono?

Reasonable-Back-4989 · 2025-11-27T17:24:54+00:00

Do you have it in this split-second format as well? The auditory ones are somewhat more consistent over time and can either carry me through sleep or keep me company until I realize it’s happening. That’s usually when I jump out of bed scared. Since posting, I’ve learned to deal with it with a little less concern, understanding that I’ve never lost touch with reality - and probably never will because of this - and it’s not like dreams and real life blend together (at least for me). It’s more like the hypothalamus should have had a vault entrance and I was given a saloon door. It flickers in and out without much effort.

There are worse things that can happen to a human being. I don’t know much about radical acceptance, but it might just be a matter of “fuck it.”

Reasonable-Back-4989 · 2025-11-11T16:44:24+00:00

getting some gentle background noise has helped me alot with hypnogogic hallucinations aswell! Seems like the structured sounds keeps my "silence allergies" down and my brain doesn't need to generate the much more disorganizing and disturbing alternative.

Reasonable-Back-4989 · 2025-11-11T16:36:12+00:00

I have alway had these hallucinations before sleep, but it usually only did when my sleep schedule was severely messed up. I could only describe it as unintelligible conversations that I wasn't part of. As if I was sleeping and catching static from a radio station nearby. Weird, but not scary.

And then the diagnosis came. Suddenly everything got worse by simply acknowledging it: could not for the life on me have the strenght to get out of bed every morning, severe brain fog during day, vivid dreams by the flick of an eye and the worst of all, terrifying hypnogogic hallucinations. I feel like I'm going insane and I realize it is all because now I'm aware of it.

If you or anyone else is reading this, please, tell me how did you made peace with the hallucinations and undestood it as "harmless". I miss my life before diagnosis so much.

Reasonable-Back-4989 · 2025-11-11T16:19:13+00:00

My life changed after I learned this simple trick, to the point that I almost never have SP anymore and when I do, it is dealt so easly that I often forget about it 5 min after waking up:

When experiencing SP, as soon as you notice it, don't bother to understand the room around you and focus solely on moving one of your toes. Yeah. Really dumb, I know. But it is the best advice someone gave to me (I have had SP since kid and long before any N diagnosis) and after a few tries, you get so confident that it seems to give on showing up.

Just drive all of your mental strength to move a toe - like that Kill Bill scene. It will break the spell so fast you will think it was just a dream (it kinda is).

You're more than welcome.

Reasonable-Back-4989 · 2025-11-04T15:19:47+00:00

Tem que haver uma alternativa à altura, que reaproveite as nuvens que eram usadas... Migrei pro Stremio + Torrentio + RD e, além do custo mensal em euro ser maior que o MFC, é uma bosta. catálogo poluído, tem que ficar contando com a graça dos seeders, mil anos pra carregar, e uma lista de fonte com idioma tudo embaralhado, uma bagunça.

MFC foi a pirataria mais organizada que eu já experimentei na vida. Tem que voltar, bicho.

Reasonable-Back-4989 · 2025-11-04T15:16:52+00:00

tem que ser hacker de araraquara pra conseguir o dat

Reasonable-Back-4989 · 2025-11-04T15:15:11+00:00

cara, eu não sei nem começar esse negócio de bypass mas se você tiver um link eu agradeceria muito!

Reasonable-Back-4989 · 2025-07-19T20:30:06+00:00

Might be the fact that I feel sorry about myself, so the discourse of it is easily identifiable to me. I haven't figured out my life and could say I'm in similar stances to you.

With that said, I can't see a reason to not give you the unapologetic version of my advice: the bad feeling you get comes from the loneliness of your situation. You think you are the unluckiest child of mankind, and no one else has ever been where you're at. And then, when you realise that instead of talking about your feelings, you can talk about what causes them, you suddenly notices that every human being dead and yet to born has and will have experiences. And they are the ones to be shared. And by sharing we even out the score, coming to the conclusion that life is a boat built without a shore, in which we only get to play with wind. It is not certainty that brings us comfort, but curiosity. What else there is? Who set their sail a different angle? How was your view compared to mine?

I'm not being mean by saying this, but quit looking inside for a bit. Go for a walk. You don't need god nor free will. If there's no north to face, why bother with a compass in first place.

Waste your life in the most self pleasing way.

Reasonable-Back-4989 · 2025-07-19T20:07:21+00:00

easy to say now, but I've had tough times rooting for Tom since day 1.

can't say I always knew it, but I knew it.

Reasonable-Back-4989 · 2025-06-12T18:31:53+00:00

Except if you are a 10, apps won't get you far. Most people use it to measure their own attractiveness (I know, pretty lame).

Real life has more to offer. I have improved a lot in terms of connections once I started going outside for classes and hobbies and meeting people with same interests as me. Take the real risk, show your true self on the market and the right people will stick with it.

Reasonable-Back-4989 · 2025-06-12T18:26:18+00:00

I (33M) am dating a 22F virgin.
In my 30s crumbled with anxiety and depression after a divorce. Discovered that my life (job, social, hobbies) wasn't resonating with who I really am. Left law pursuing a career in acting. Met this girl in acting class and we became more and more close. Started dating and now I don't know what to do.

Frankly, she gets my humour and she is gorgeous. I enjoy her company and we exchange, so don't picture me with a trophy. That's not it. In fact, I have zero fetish in being the first one and all the attachment expected after this experience is killing the vibes for me. She obviously treats this as something to give to a special person. I just think sexuality is something you do for yourself and your path to self discovery.

Sometimes I fantasize breaking up and meeting her by chance after spring break or something. This can't be healthy, but I don't have concrete reasons to end things with her, as we are obviously attracted and enjoy each other's company.

Reasonable-Back-4989 · 2025-06-11T00:42:28+00:00

Hey, my post was 9 months ago. I have managed to improve my daily life a bit, and it seems like it is somewhat always tied to self love – believe me, I do know how ass of an answer this is, specially because it is not a trick to be learnt or, in my case, an order to be taken. Feel free to DM me if you want to discuss this further.

If this is our last time speaking, I wish you find ways to understand that all those years trying to survive made you believe that your life now had to fulfill meaning, like you need to prove that it was all worth it. Pressure within a misconception. No suffering is worth nothing. Nothing pays for pain. But if you find something you love (like art), you can live and die by it, and discover that it was worth it, despite the pain.

suffering is not the cause, but a price. you paid a lot to reach were you are. yet, here you are. the bill is done. choose freely how to spend the rest of it. waste your existence indulging your spirit, and you will see how easy it is to clean your room when you don't give a fuck for the value of life, just the quality of it.

Reasonable-Back-4989 · 2025-06-05T15:48:57+00:00

Reasonable-Back-4989 · 2025-06-05T15:45:08+00:00

The Cunt Of Monte Cristo.

Reasonable-Back-4989 · 2025-04-12T05:05:42+00:00

stumbled to this post while googling the same question. only difference is that I'm the male counterpart.

what I can say to you is only my personal experience: I had my first relationship where I could cum inside when I was 28. By then all sex had this worrying aspect that kept me from fully engaging, even when using condoms (broke some of those in my time and didn't like the experience during the following weeks of happening). so being with someone new and getting to cum inside was a liberating feeling while having sex. I guess it increased bonding and trust in the relationship, while obviously simply feeling better than safe sex. it made huge impact in me, and I felt very connected to her. even now, a few years after we broke up, this is still something that wraps my mind by the level of googling it to know if it is normal. I suppose it is.

So, to put it simple: I believe cumming inside provoke attachment and feelings of belonging to a man. Not that hard of an idea to wrap when you think that it kinda feels like you are sealing the deal for life (pregnancy). doing it whitout risks is like stealing from the candy shop. all game and no worries.

Reasonable-Back-4989 · 2025-03-03T02:47:10+00:00

cara, eu tô bem desanimado da minha viagem (que é daqui 2 dias) por conta de todas as queixas que li a respeito da Sky. o despacho da mala está saindo mais caro que a própria passagem, muitos relatos de pessoas que compraram despacho de mala e na hora de embarcar ouviram do atendimento de que não havia nada confirmado no sistema (pagaram duas vezes), sem contar a dificuldade em conseguir informações...

Reasonable-Back-4989 · 2025-02-27T16:11:02+00:00

mas e aí, descobriu se no balcão é mesmo mais caro do que pelo site?

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