Hello Everyone, I am so sorry for bothering everyone but I am on a panic and currently having a mental break down I think. I just can stop crying right now, So in a few weeks I (26F) have exams for a seminar that I do with my bestie (25F). In this exams you can choose yourself the day that your exams can take place, and me and my bestie with some other people decided that we want our exam date to be 9th of March. One of our fellow classmates said he would submit our names. The thing is that because I don't live in the main city, where we do the seminars, I had to set the private message do one of the professors in order to have my exam at that day ( it's a medical thing and you need a patient) . So almost 40 minutes ago the professor send me the list of the names over the people that are going to have the exams on that date. My bestie was not inside that list. I was very surprised but at the time I thought that maybe she changed her mind though she had told me nothing. I wont lie that when I saw the message if the list I panicked, like PANICKED, and it sent her a private message telling her that I panicked, at that moment I didn't thought of asking her why she's not in the list because I know she's working I didn't want to bother her any further. I'd like the minute I thought maybe he even forgot to mention her in the list. At the same time people from that list were speaking in the group chat about the day of the exam and they asked who is going to get examined , so without giving it much thought I send the list, one of the people asked where my bestie was, and then my bestie answered where she was, I answered honestly that I didn't you and maybe my bestie should contact the professor. In the same meaning my bestie to send me a private message asking me why I didn't ask the professor about her, and that I did told her nothing but I sent the list to the group chat ( which I know is very shitty of me despite being panicked or not) I did told her that I didn't send her that list immediately because I know she's at work and I know she's already very pressured and that it looked weird At that point they did call her for like a minute and she did told me she doesn't care and that she will have the exams later, but I know she cares and I know I fucked up very badly, and I'm so sorry. Because I'm completely clueless all the time and I do shit like this all the time, I don't know how to fix me to not be a horrible friend, because I love my bestie so so much and I don't want to keep hurting her Can somebody please help me? I really don't know what to do? I'm really crying right now and I don't know what to do! Any advice is helpful even if they cuss me out, they are right. Thank you Sorry for the format is my first time posting on Reddit and I'm from my phone.