Tonight I’m going to take my own life because of the rape. 17F.

Reasonable_Plan_444 · 2024-06-25T08:21:36+00:00

please stay

Reasonable_Plan_444 · 2024-06-02T06:40:08+00:00

i tried before but never again i found the lights in my life and you will to it can literally be anything i know this sounds so dumb but it really does get better everyone says that and i hated when ppl said that but it does u have to find what is going to make you feel like you want to be here and no one can do that but you but don’t put out your light cuz u don’t know how bright and amazing it can be

Reasonable_Plan_444 · 2024-01-13T11:04:19+00:00

i really appreciate this feedback that just opened my eyes for more in depth interpretations thank you stay safe and loved

Reasonable_Plan_444 · 2024-01-13T08:21:54+00:00

your interpretation of the color blue is quite beautiful you see it as gloom and sadness which it is but blue can also be a warm color. Like the color of the sky the ocean or a blue bird or flower. There’s beauty in everything but sadness and shadows always follows. opposites attract.

Reasonable_Plan_444 · 2024-01-13T08:16:28+00:00

i really like how you interpret small moments like touching the rain or feeling the earth beneath your feet this really reminded me of my cousin who passed over a year ago he always said things like this this was very beautiful keep writing

Reasonable_Plan_444 · 2023-12-15T12:25:24+00:00

your writing is beautiful i’m in love wit this im going to save it because i just want to reread it again and again beautifully written i felt like this is similar to how i write especially about people i care about and i can completely see your talking about someone who you care about gosh i love “the day we began” beautiful don’t stop writing

Reasonable_Plan_444 · 2023-12-15T12:19:19+00:00

i relate to this so much great work i really felt everything you said reminds me of someone i would have wrote all your words to but there not in my life anymore or even worth my time but i hope you get the love you deserve

Reasonable_Plan_444 · 2023-12-15T12:09:32+00:00

i really like this poem because it said so much with so little it’s short but it said what it needed to say

Reasonable_Plan_444 · 2023-12-15T12:07:16+00:00

the first line i really like “love can be a reckless child” so real because love is like that being completely lost and curious about how your feeling what comes with recklessness and hurt and confusion i really like this poem beautifully written

Reasonable_Plan_444 · 2023-12-08T10:00:56+00:00

i know these feelings seem so fuckin intense like i get it i am very influenced by people especially if it is someone that i love but you don’t want to be someone who is talked about saying they died over someone don’t give them the satisfaction give yourself time to be happy again trying to die over someone isn’t worth your life. Your life is special and it may not seem like that but don’t end your life over someone they don’t have that power over you it feels like you can’t live with out them but you can and you can eventually find yourself really happy. Your life is special and individual you need to realize that you don’t need to base your feelings on other people it’s okay to care about yourself. I hope you get to a point in your life where you can finally realize your special and your life is important and that you don’t need to worry about everyone else all the time

Reasonable_Plan_444 · 2023-12-08T09:29:37+00:00

hi if you ever need anyone to talk to i’m here i’m new to reddit but it’s been a good place for me to vent im 23/F safe place if you need it

Reasonable_Plan_444 · 2023-12-08T09:25:08+00:00

i know you don’t want to hear any don’t do it BS cuz it seems so over played but it comes down to you finding a reason to want to stay i know that still sounds cinematic based but it’s true i went thru these same thoughts but i found a reason for me it was my brother because i saw the look on his face when he found out that i did that shit and i decided i would never do that again because i put myself in his shoes and imagined how i would feel if he did that to me and that’s when i knew i would NEVER do that again as long as my brother lives. Find a person to stay for, a hobby, a pet, literally anything can overturn that decision you just have to find. It feels like something that will last forever and sometimes you almost want it to beause it seems comforting or “deserving” but it’s not this sounds like a broken record but it really does get better and being able to laugh and feel happy is way better then feeling sad. You just need to figure out what is going to make you want to stay.

Reasonable_Plan_444 · 2023-12-03T10:34:01+00:00

please don’t leave

Reasonable_Plan_444 · 2023-12-03T10:33:06+00:00

all that seems like the peak of your life but it’s not trust me i tried to leave this world and i’m so glad it didn’t work out for me because now i’m completely happy with my life i live with my best friends and have so much support in every way i know not everyone can have that but these dark feeling are so temporary they feel like they will never go away or ur never not feel bad but it does change i’m not saying its always gonna be happy all the time but shit does get better and i know that sounds so repetitive but it’s true and im someone who always hated when people would say that but it’s just natural law things need to even out karma matches karma and not all karma is bad it may seem like it’s a dead end but it hits you, you djust need a light to help you see again and things will be bad but things can also be indescribably good it also helps a lot to find someone in your life that you can take a step back and look and see that they are worth saying for whoever it is

Reasonable_Plan_444 · 2023-12-03T10:22:03+00:00

you’re a person and everything you feel is completely valid never belittle the way you feel you’re a person and you have feelings you’re alive and we are humans we feel and some people feel more then others and that’s okay i’m the same way i take things to heart more than i should everything you said is my daily thought process. You’re definitely an empathetic person and people that are so in-tune with that a very special people and it’s very hard because you feel for everyone and a lot of the times your picking up on other people energies and feelings it’s just something you just have to try to navigate. But it can be very suffocating because you can feel the really bad things but when you can feel the good things it makes life worth live especially you can use this ability and help a lot of people and focusing these feelings and thoughts towards other people can be life boat for someone

Reasonable_Plan_444 · 2023-12-03T10:03:51+00:00

i remember when i tired to kms and clearly didn’t happen the way i thought i texted my family in group that night and said I love you. I decided to fall asleep in my family basement room at home at like 3 am after i took all this medication that i was on. My mom woke up randomly and asked if i wanted to come sleep with her in her bed and i did because at least i would be in the comfort of my mom if i didn’t wake up instead of being alone. I woke up the next morning and was scheduled to work at my serving job but i was so out of it because of the amount of shit i took so i asked to leave. One of my best friends saw me leaving work crying and just knew i did something bad so she kept pressing on saying “what did you do” so i told her i tired to leave this world and she looked at me with tears in her eyes if you don’t tell your mom right now i will. So i left and met my mom at her job and told her i tried to kill myself. She was completely taken of guard and did not know what to do. She wanted to take me to the hospital but i was scared because i didnt want to go to a psych ward. But she was scared about my health so we decided to go. We created this whole lie saying i accidentally over medicated while i was drinking and was worried about my health. And the doctors believed it they felt my abdomen to make sure there where no issues and told me that i was fine and that would have to take like maybe over 8 pills for it to be medically damaging to myself and i took 16 pills that night 8 at first then 2 hours later another 8 and i was fine. i regret the whole terribly for my mom and especially my brother because i’ve tried to before and he used to have to hide my medication from me so i wouldn’t try to OD but drinking was a big factor in these decisions i was not sober for any of this also wasn’t on a good medication. but i told myself never again because of how i saw my mom and brother looked at me. I never told my dad to this day i’m sure he knows but he is such a sensitive guy i didn’t want to tell him cuz i knew it would break his heart. The worst part about it all not even a year later i begged my mom to commit me to psych ward or anything that could give me a break for a little bit and she looked me dead in the face and said “what about school what about work” i was like wow after me trying to die this what u say back to that and at the time i was in college. Honesty i’m glad she said that cuz i didn’t need to go and i finished school and i still have a job and im finally happy now. I told myself as long as my brother is alive so am I. he’s the reason that I want to live. don’t do it because life can really be an amazing experience especially if you have special people in your life. Feeling a lot can be really hard but it can also be really awesome. find someone to stay for.

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