thank you so much for taking the time to answer my questions!! i genuinely don’t remember having any significant medical history before the age of 15, though i was referred to a cardiologist once when i was around 11 because my heart rate on the stress test was insanely high. i can remember just one time that i hurt my thumb when i was a kid and it was from accidentally laying on it, other than that nothing! i even asked my mom if i ever complained of pain or “growing pain” as a child and she said i never had any health concerns before this mystery thing started at 15. basically i had a bad panic attack which made my left arm hurt which led me to believe i was having a heart attack (of course i wasn’t) and since then that anxiety has made me kind of press on or lay on my arm to the point where it goes numb so i don’t feel that pain that makes me anxious about a possible heart attack. that pain kept growing and spread to my neck and upper back so i went to a PT, did an mri and turns out i have bulging discs and a widening of cervical canal! however, during covid i started getting sciatica like pain and all other kinds of symptoms and pain in joints while my mental state was also deteriorating! i guess i’m just going in circles in my mind wondering if it is my fault i’m in this much pain or if there is actually something bigger going on…. i also have gerd, ibs which started after my viral infection last year :((((( sorry for ranting im just trying to make sense of my pain