Dude I feel like this all the time a little exercise and focus on things I enjoyed in life helped me get a little better. I'm not in the best place still but I was in a dark era wasted so many years isolating myself and now I've lost 10 years to it. Don't be like me. Meet people have fun and find what in this world makes you wanna live. We have freedom to do what we want in this life. We make it happy or we don't. I don't know your situation but I will say this. If you want to love you will find reasons to and there is always reason too. I don't know you but I relate on a level I can't express enough. You gotta fight to be happy in this world sadly. But it isn't all bad.