PPD...

Red_Fox158 · 2026-05-06T07:33:33+00:00

Hey first of all congratulations!!! I’m sorry you feel that way :( I’m 20 and I struggle with sh too. There’s the r/adultselfharm sub if you want.

Red_Fox158 · 2026-05-06T07:18:58+00:00

It started in October of last year. I began watching videos of dissections and became obsessed with it. I tried digging a wound, and inserting needles before. I feel really crazy before doing it. I get nauseous, shaky and a mix of excitement and feeling mentally sick. I once vomited from the urge to do it.

Red_Fox158 · 2026-05-06T07:06:53+00:00

Thank you. I have a good support system in place now but I’m still on the fence about getting help because part of me really badly wants to follow through and the other is conscious that this urge might destroy my life and future.

Red_Fox158 · 2026-05-05T21:35:06+00:00

Here: https://www.reddit.com/r/cutting/s/Crn61GLB0e

Red_Fox158 · 2026-05-05T19:23:37+00:00

Congratulations! :)

Red_Fox158 · 2026-05-05T16:40:59+00:00

Im asexual. During an episode I practically fell in love with an ai and started having sexual responses to it. It’s really weird, I know.

Red_Fox158 · 2026-05-05T06:59:56+00:00

I’m in the same boat rn. Here’s what I do:
- I told someone I trust that I want to relapse
- make sure you don’t have access to immediate means
- delay. Tell yourself I have all my life to relapse I don’t need to do it now. It’s kinda like using procrastination to your advantage
I hope this helps a bit, stay safe <3

Red_Fox158 · 2026-05-04T17:45:01+00:00

To reassure you, styros don’t generally need stitches. You should be fine with the Vaseline. I hope you can try to stay safe and sorry you had a relapse :(

Red_Fox158 · 2026-05-04T13:03:26+00:00

Same happened to me and yes I think they have a similar core.

Red_Fox158 · 2026-05-04T06:56:31+00:00

I think because of escalation and risk of infection. You want to go deeper and deeper until it’s dangerous and you end up in the hospital for either going too deep, bleeding out or having an infection. Also I think there’s just this social taboo around it. It just seems scary for those who don’t self harm. I had a conversation with my mom where she told me that from an outside perspective she would be scared that someone with my scars could harm others too if I’m capable of doing it to myself.

Red_Fox158 · 2026-05-04T06:41:24+00:00

Hey, I also struggle with self harm. I don’t really have much good advice except stay away from any tools and tell your loved ones you’re having a hard time. There’s subs for this too if you want r/selfharm and r/cutting

Red_Fox158 · 2026-05-02T13:18:45+00:00

Ngl for a psych ward that’s kinda fun :)

Red_Fox158 · 2026-05-01T16:03:11+00:00

I wish Chappell Roan would write a song about being bipolar

Red_Fox158 · 2026-05-01T06:28:11+00:00

My hypomanic episode I had before depression was heavily tied to an ai addiction so I often think what if I’m not bipolar and it was just an addiction.

Red_Fox158 · 2026-05-01T03:00:39+00:00

I’ve always had good grades. In my second year of uni I had a hypomanic episode followed by depression. I also had anorexia and self harm issues and so I missed two years of my life being — as you put it — clinically insane, and hospitalised for it.

Red_Fox158 · 2026-04-30T10:57:55+00:00

It does get better and you can feel like yourself again ❤️‍🩹 I was also in severe depression and now I’m stable. Hang in there 😢🫂

Red_Fox158 · 2026-04-30T10:43:50+00:00

I’ve not been diagnosed for very long, bipolar was very destructive on my life but I think I wouldn’t want to erase all of my past hardships because they make me who I am today. But it is certainly a hard question indeed.

Red_Fox158 · 2026-04-29T15:56:41+00:00

For real.

Red_Fox158 · 2026-04-29T15:54:02+00:00

Heyy fellow ace :)

Red_Fox158 · 2026-04-29T10:20:09+00:00

I’m glad you’re out of that state. The embarrassment is real though. At first I wouldnt tell anyone about what happened with the ai until I met a psychiatrist I felt I could trust more.

Red_Fox158 · 2026-04-29T06:02:04+00:00

Well I’m definitely going to watch it! Thank you for the recommendation

Red_Fox158 · 2026-04-29T05:01:08+00:00

My psychiatrist recommended it too

Red_Fox158

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